Organizing My Thoughts
I don't update this frequently enough to pretend like this post has no catalyst, so I won't. Finals are here. It is the time of year when above my head hangs a constant reminder that I don't have it together and that I don't have a plan, and I am no closer to putting the puzzle together than I was any amount of time before now.
I would very much like for someone to come and pat my head and rub my shoulder and say "cheer up, Charlie! You've got as good a chance as any one else!". This is true. I know. Hard to keep that in focus when you are sitting on the couch, crying and watching ABC's Extreme Home Makeover (which ALWAYS gets me, damnit!).
I am also being reminded of the bigger picture. Unfortunately, when that picture was taken - I blinked. Or stuck my toungue out. Or did any number of things to ruin it for everyone else. And now, after getting their pictures developed, everyone comes to me and points out that my eyes are closed, or that I smile funny.
(Aside: while I do smile funny, that is not the point of my analogy.)
I burnt out just two days shy of when I could let go. I started fizzling on the Saturday before, which is never a good sign. By Monday I was fried.
I'm gonna go eat something to avoid dealing with my emotions!
Tomorrow's Forecast: Bright and cheery!
I would very much like for someone to come and pat my head and rub my shoulder and say "cheer up, Charlie! You've got as good a chance as any one else!". This is true. I know. Hard to keep that in focus when you are sitting on the couch, crying and watching ABC's Extreme Home Makeover (which ALWAYS gets me, damnit!).
I am also being reminded of the bigger picture. Unfortunately, when that picture was taken - I blinked. Or stuck my toungue out. Or did any number of things to ruin it for everyone else. And now, after getting their pictures developed, everyone comes to me and points out that my eyes are closed, or that I smile funny.
(Aside: while I do smile funny, that is not the point of my analogy.)
I burnt out just two days shy of when I could let go. I started fizzling on the Saturday before, which is never a good sign. By Monday I was fried.
I'm gonna go eat something to avoid dealing with my emotions!
Tomorrow's Forecast: Bright and cheery!