Confused...bad...
Soooo...I'm leaving work, the 21st is my last day. Great.
There's this girl there that's had a crush on me for a long time that I haven't worked with for a long time and then just last week she had to work a couple of lunches. So we got to talking and talking led to flirting and flirting led to having a date and a date led to her sleeping over. No sex though. Which is a good thing.
I don't want to lead her on or anything, because I'm pretty sure it's not going to go anywhere and I'm being completely selfish about the whole thing because pretty much the only reason we went out is because she was there and she wanted me and I wanted to be wanted.
And I'm still not over Davina. Not by a long shot. This pretty much just reaffirmed in some strange way that I'm really in love with her, which sucks, because she wants nothing to do with me as far as I can tell. I dunno, it's just little stuff...like the way we slept together and the way our bodies would knit together perfectly and all that kind of stuff. I think we fit together in general really well, and I wish she saw that too.....
But in the meantime....
I dunno. She's a nice girl, and fun, and she likes me a lot. But I hate to go out with someone as a "place keeper." That's just not me. But maybe that's what I need right now.
Oh, and the two of them are friends, too! Great!!!!
Fuck me.....
There's this girl there that's had a crush on me for a long time that I haven't worked with for a long time and then just last week she had to work a couple of lunches. So we got to talking and talking led to flirting and flirting led to having a date and a date led to her sleeping over. No sex though. Which is a good thing.
I don't want to lead her on or anything, because I'm pretty sure it's not going to go anywhere and I'm being completely selfish about the whole thing because pretty much the only reason we went out is because she was there and she wanted me and I wanted to be wanted.
And I'm still not over Davina. Not by a long shot. This pretty much just reaffirmed in some strange way that I'm really in love with her, which sucks, because she wants nothing to do with me as far as I can tell. I dunno, it's just little stuff...like the way we slept together and the way our bodies would knit together perfectly and all that kind of stuff. I think we fit together in general really well, and I wish she saw that too.....
But in the meantime....
I dunno. She's a nice girl, and fun, and she likes me a lot. But I hate to go out with someone as a "place keeper." That's just not me. But maybe that's what I need right now.
Oh, and the two of them are friends, too! Great!!!!
Fuck me.....