and another thing
Ya know, I remember a lot of things. One of my gifts is a good memory. I remember specificly my first time having sex. The girl was on her period, and it sucked, but later that week she said something to me that rings in my ears. It must have been a lie, I have found that out now, but I always thought it was truth. She said " ya know what was best about the sex, it was the way you made me feel afterwords, the way you kissed me, and held me, and just, told me you loved me. You made me feel special, no one else has ever done that." Wow, what a loser I was for believing I could make someone feel special.