Getting a grip
There are instances in life when you find out who your true friends are, and those instances are the ones that become ingrained in evey aspect of your soul. Last night I came to realize that I need to get my life back and stop letting myself become everything that I hate. I am not the person that I once was, I am nothing more than a poor excuse for a human. I try so hard to put on the show of being in control, but in reality I am so out of control that I am either going to die or go to jail. I have lost humility, that is something that bothers me greatly. How can I expect to make it in life if I can't be humble, from this day forward I will not be drinking or going to parties. I have goals and responsibilities that I must maintain and achieve. I saw someone on friday night that was the best thing to have ever happened to me, and because of my poor decision making I lost her. I know that there will never be a chance to repair the things that I put her through, but I want her to know that I love her very much and I am truly sorry for being such a bastard. I have done and said things to her that I never should have, and I have done and said things to others that I never should have. To all of the people I have hurt, I am sorry and I pray that you will forgive me. Lance is one of the best friends that I have, and I thank God that he is there when I need him. Laura, Please forgive me for the things that happened and give me a chance to show you that I am sorry for hurting you.Everyone that was at my house last night attended the last party that will ever take place there.