WHY AM I ALONE?
OKay im not even supposed to be on the comp. but im alot of valium so i dont really give a shit... i cant believe i was completely sober for 3 months....n then my mom threw away...
ALL MY FUCKIN MUSIC
ALL MY FUCKIN POSTERS
ALL MY FUCKIN BAND TSHIRTS
i paid for all that shit! i cant remember the last time she baught me ANY thing like that i really hate loving my mother...times like these im so fuckin lonly...i used to have my music to heal me for atlast a wile...but its gone n all i feel it shitty! she took away my whole fucking life...
im just scared now...scared of doing what i used to do....i was clean for 3 fucking months...3 MONTHS..thats a long time...i thought i was over NOT being happy and doing drugs...i was doing so well...now its all i have...i need to get out of my house BAD... i hate being alone so much...thats what im scared of most in life... is being alone...
It is always couples..thats all im around... Lauren and Jimmy...Jessie and Paul (sister n almost brother in law)...My mom and scott who are gettin married the 11th...i mean FUCK Jessie met Paul when she was 15, and has been in love ever since...she's 18 now n they have a kid...why is it so fuckin easy for people to fall in love? i dont even need to be in love, i just need to be liked..by someone i have feelings for too...
My life is the same day after fuckin day n im gettin so fuckin tired of it
FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ALL MY FUCKIN MUSIC
ALL MY FUCKIN POSTERS
ALL MY FUCKIN BAND TSHIRTS
i paid for all that shit! i cant remember the last time she baught me ANY thing like that i really hate loving my mother...times like these im so fuckin lonly...i used to have my music to heal me for atlast a wile...but its gone n all i feel it shitty! she took away my whole fucking life...
im just scared now...scared of doing what i used to do....i was clean for 3 fucking months...3 MONTHS..thats a long time...i thought i was over NOT being happy and doing drugs...i was doing so well...now its all i have...i need to get out of my house BAD... i hate being alone so much...thats what im scared of most in life... is being alone...
It is always couples..thats all im around... Lauren and Jimmy...Jessie and Paul (sister n almost brother in law)...My mom and scott who are gettin married the 11th...i mean FUCK Jessie met Paul when she was 15, and has been in love ever since...she's 18 now n they have a kid...why is it so fuckin easy for people to fall in love? i dont even need to be in love, i just need to be liked..by someone i have feelings for too...
My life is the same day after fuckin day n im gettin so fuckin tired of it
FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!