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what is up, journal?
1. i dont like school. sometimes i feel like im in the wrong major. then again sometimes its cause i dont see myself w/ any kind of future so any major would be wrong. like i wanna do art, but thats too hard to start off w/. i wanna be a doc, but i feel like everyone's way too much smarter and more in charge of their goals than i am. i am a little kitty in this dog eat dog world and im gonna fail in life.
2. my family. my parents. everything is changing. i miss high school, and middle school, and elementary school. i hate growing up. ive hated it since i was 11, but theres not stopping it. ohh.. what should i do?
3. i feel like my social life is horrible. it seems like everyone wants to drink and go to clubs and parties all the time. i mean i have gone to a few clubs and a few parties myself, but i dont crave it. soo... ive concluded (w/ the help of my good buddy mikel) that we're socially inept. cause it seems that i am a fairly lively and interesting person to talk to online, but once in person, i go silent. i cant think of anything to say... actually i just cant think of anything at all. howww do i fix it?
4. i dont like how i always feel like something is wrong. is it cause people only focus on the things that are wrong in their lives so they dont really notice when something is right? i think so. maybe its because we focus on the wrongs in order to try to fix it. and the right things we ignore because we dont want to damage it.
5. i wish i was more outgoing and open. every once in a while, id have a burst of outgoingness, but it fades after like 10 minutes. its always fun when it happens though. and those who catch are damn lucky to have experienced me. damn lucky i tell ya.
1. i dont like school. sometimes i feel like im in the wrong major. then again sometimes its cause i dont see myself w/ any kind of future so any major would be wrong. like i wanna do art, but thats too hard to start off w/. i wanna be a doc, but i feel like everyone's way too much smarter and more in charge of their goals than i am. i am a little kitty in this dog eat dog world and im gonna fail in life.
2. my family. my parents. everything is changing. i miss high school, and middle school, and elementary school. i hate growing up. ive hated it since i was 11, but theres not stopping it. ohh.. what should i do?
3. i feel like my social life is horrible. it seems like everyone wants to drink and go to clubs and parties all the time. i mean i have gone to a few clubs and a few parties myself, but i dont crave it. soo... ive concluded (w/ the help of my good buddy mikel) that we're socially inept. cause it seems that i am a fairly lively and interesting person to talk to online, but once in person, i go silent. i cant think of anything to say... actually i just cant think of anything at all. howww do i fix it?
4. i dont like how i always feel like something is wrong. is it cause people only focus on the things that are wrong in their lives so they dont really notice when something is right? i think so. maybe its because we focus on the wrongs in order to try to fix it. and the right things we ignore because we dont want to damage it.
5. i wish i was more outgoing and open. every once in a while, id have a burst of outgoingness, but it fades after like 10 minutes. its always fun when it happens though. and those who catch are damn lucky to have experienced me. damn lucky i tell ya.