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1. Adam
2. Karl
3. Chris
4. Stacie
5. Will
6. Javier
7. Vincent
8. Anonymous Mexican 1
9. Anonymous Mexican 2
10. Reese
11. Joey
12. Tye
13. Lonnie
14. Wes
15. Ray
16. Shane
17. C-dub
18. Tony
19. Baldo
I made this list up tonight in case I might forget someone or lose the list in the future (like I did with the original one which was in chronological order). Does anyone have any additions to the list, or did my hour of trying to remember actually pay off? I'm pretty sure I'm forgetting at least one person, ut I really can't remember who it might be so I think this is correct. I realize it's probably rather pitiful on some level to even be thinking about this, but y'know what? Fuck off.
ANYwho.
My kidneys hurt. Really badly. Actually by now they don't hurt as much, they're just a dull aching pain that won't go away. Kind of like that chronic pain in my ass that seems to always come on whenever I get a phone call or step outside the house. Or see James. But whatever. I'm thinkin about going to the doctor tomorrow, but I don't know if I'll get around to it. I might just sleep through the day and deal with it throughout work. If I end up in the hospital again at least I'll get more sleep! And pain meds. Oh yes, pain meds. Hopefully Demerol intravenously. That shit's goooooood. Woot woot.
I'm still sleeping like 12 hours a night. Although I don't GET to sleep till about 2 or 3 usually. It's 1:30 now. I wanted to go to bed aorund 10:30- felt like I was gonna pass out. No such luck, I'm still awake. As I type though I get more and more tired. So maybe i'll try for a third time to go to sleep. It doesn't really matter cuz I feel completely exhausted all the time anyway, no matter how much sleep I get. It irritates the hell out of me and I know I've been a bitch lately but I'm so fucking tired of this. I'm fucking miserable all the time whether I have a home and I'm sober or I'm cracked out living in my car. It's fucking stupid. I'm fucking stupid.
Fuck.
**Additions/Remembered as of 10/16/05** 20. Ryder 21. Angel 22. Anonymous Mexican #3 **Additions/Remembered as of 10/25/05** 23. Soapy 24. Jose 25. Juan