Apology
Yeah, guys, I have a real, heart-felt apology for you. I went back and read some of my old entries from last month, and I really wasn't myself. You know, when people get depressed or enraged, they just don't know what they do or say. I try not to be that way, but I am, and I wish I wasn't. I felt like I was reading some of these entries for the first time, not even believing that I was the one who wrote these horrible words to people I care so much about. Whoever that mystery commenter was was right: I do change when I write like that. I hate it, and I wish I could promise that I'd never do it again, but I can't. I can't make a promise I can't keep. I'm sorry. For everything wrong that I've said.
I realize that it's not going to happen, between me and this girl. But you know, guys, I've always been fine with that. Every girl I've had a crush on has hurt me, indirectly, because I've always known that nothing would escalate between me and her. But not this girl. I've known from the start nothing would happen, but I haven't felt bad. Just being around her fills me with such joy, I can't even describe it. I hope she gets the most wonderful guy she can ever think of. Peace and love, folks.
-Jim
I realize that it's not going to happen, between me and this girl. But you know, guys, I've always been fine with that. Every girl I've had a crush on has hurt me, indirectly, because I've always known that nothing would escalate between me and her. But not this girl. I've known from the start nothing would happen, but I haven't felt bad. Just being around her fills me with such joy, I can't even describe it. I hope she gets the most wonderful guy she can ever think of. Peace and love, folks.
-Jim