Sep 16, 2007 15:02
and kinda well. I've been battling a horrendous head cold since Friday. Internship is going well. I have days where I'm like "What the hell am I doing? I can't DO this... I suck!" but then a kid comes up and hugs me (around my legs of course- they ARE only six afterall) and I realize that I AM doing ok.
I feel very out of place in my apartment. Maybe it's because I had to work every day this week sans two days, I don't know. I DO know, however, that I feel that the only time anyone notices I'm around and talks to me first is when I need to cut a check. We used to go grocery shopping together, and eat together, and I was asked if I wanted to join them places. Now I'm inviting myself to work out with Sonya and Alex... Which is wrong of me. I don't want to rain on their parade. Guess I can just do things on my own and be a loner.
I'm in a craptactular mood. I'm sick, tired, and irritated at how I didn't have enough time to get my apt ready for Tuesday. Jon is coming into town for a week and my place looks like crap. What a great hostess I'm going to be...
Joe leaves soon. Deployment came up quick... =\
I'm ready for a change. I'm ready for graduation. I'm ready to feel like I belong somewhere. St. Augustine isn't that place... After 4 years, I'm finalyl accepting that I don't belong here with anyone..