Its been a while.....
Its been a while since Ive updated this thing but Im feeling really shitty, and my emotions are fucking flaring everywhere, so here goes....
Jason and I went for a private today but Peter never showed, so we just stayed at the gym and played around for a little while...worked on turns and fuertes, and sequences for tryouts and stuff like that.....w/e. He and I went and picked up some Jamaican food, and went and met Otto, and Gaby at the house.....heres where the frustration sets in:
~I get word from marc that he has nowhere to stay when he comes down for tryouts this weekend, so now i have to scramble around b/c I dont want the poor boy to feel unwated.
~Mike still hasnt applied b/c everytime he gets remotley near the computer it crashes or shocks him or sumthin.
~Javarus lets me know today that hes not going to go spot this weekend b/c his job wouldnt let him take the time off, and Greg doesnt know if his mother will let him have the car yet....if not, were all screwed.....
~My dad has been playing some little you dont love me and dont aknowledge me as ur father game.....lets see, last time i checked ive been trying my damndest to establsh a relationship w/ you...but everytime i reached out....you were never there to grab or to hold on, so the stress and grief that hes outting on myself and my mother is really not needed.
~Its like right b4 finals and I have a couple essays and some studying to do, i was in the midst of the essays when i began to write this.
~and as much as I love my friends and all that good stuff, everyone has drama tonight and everyone wants to share that drama, and im all for helping people when they need it, but right now...i need sum1 and i cant even get that so, its like....my head is going on a fucking rollercoaster.
~and the piece de resistance that just blew my night to hell....Travis and I had been having little cunt fights all night...which they really do annoy me but i try my best to just stay relaxed and smile about it.....its either that or hit him...what am i gonna do? But when he started sharing not only my personal business with other people regardless of how close i may be to them or not...he stepped over a big line.....If you know I harbour feelings for someone wether they be surpressed or not and begin to nick pick at everything i do, regarding that person, in front of someone else after i tell you numerous times that its fucking with me and I dont appreciate it....then why the fuck would you do it....he thought he was sooo fucking funny, to just be throwing my shit out there.....he has no regard for privacy, or friendship, and in my mind...is just....so fucking fake....well right now with the mood im in fuck him and everyone else!
Jason and I went for a private today but Peter never showed, so we just stayed at the gym and played around for a little while...worked on turns and fuertes, and sequences for tryouts and stuff like that.....w/e. He and I went and picked up some Jamaican food, and went and met Otto, and Gaby at the house.....heres where the frustration sets in:
~I get word from marc that he has nowhere to stay when he comes down for tryouts this weekend, so now i have to scramble around b/c I dont want the poor boy to feel unwated.
~Mike still hasnt applied b/c everytime he gets remotley near the computer it crashes or shocks him or sumthin.
~Javarus lets me know today that hes not going to go spot this weekend b/c his job wouldnt let him take the time off, and Greg doesnt know if his mother will let him have the car yet....if not, were all screwed.....
~My dad has been playing some little you dont love me and dont aknowledge me as ur father game.....lets see, last time i checked ive been trying my damndest to establsh a relationship w/ you...but everytime i reached out....you were never there to grab or to hold on, so the stress and grief that hes outting on myself and my mother is really not needed.
~Its like right b4 finals and I have a couple essays and some studying to do, i was in the midst of the essays when i began to write this.
~and as much as I love my friends and all that good stuff, everyone has drama tonight and everyone wants to share that drama, and im all for helping people when they need it, but right now...i need sum1 and i cant even get that so, its like....my head is going on a fucking rollercoaster.
~and the piece de resistance that just blew my night to hell....Travis and I had been having little cunt fights all night...which they really do annoy me but i try my best to just stay relaxed and smile about it.....its either that or hit him...what am i gonna do? But when he started sharing not only my personal business with other people regardless of how close i may be to them or not...he stepped over a big line.....If you know I harbour feelings for someone wether they be surpressed or not and begin to nick pick at everything i do, regarding that person, in front of someone else after i tell you numerous times that its fucking with me and I dont appreciate it....then why the fuck would you do it....he thought he was sooo fucking funny, to just be throwing my shit out there.....he has no regard for privacy, or friendship, and in my mind...is just....so fucking fake....well right now with the mood im in fuck him and everyone else!