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Havent been on in a while but here we go.
So I finally went home to get my bitching for my grades, and low and behold....my dad wasnt there, my mom was there though, she gave me a hundred bux, and was just like have fun at school, but get ur grades in check, we watched color purple for some reason she saw it as a sad movie......i on the other hand found some parts to be quite humorous..... I had to wait about 5 hours for them, and when he got there, my mother and him sat across from each other and put me at the head of the table......very unsettling. We talked about how bad I was doing, why I was doing it, and what i can do to fix, and whats going to happern if i dont......bottom line I dont fix it.....Im off to the Navy....youd think that after 17 years of raising me they would know....Im a FAG........wow......i mean really.
Whatever it went from them yelling at me to me getting emotional b/c I really dont like my father and he was like "it hurts that you have to lie to me"....and blah blahb blah, i stopped caring about him and what he thought a long time......sometimes.....you can build a wall so strong that NOTHING will ever be able to break it down, and for years each comment hes said about me or my mother or suomething hes neglected to do as a father is like him adding another brick to that wall....hell its a fucking fortress now....but you know what....Im really over him.....I just dont feel like trying to build the father son relationship anymore...I used to try so hard to get his approval, to not be gay, to be the ideal son, and it all went unnoticed...So now...Im living for me!
I know how important grades and everything are, but theres a certain way u have to tell me things...not that u have to baby me...but yelling will get u nothing but a blank stare.
Well, Im apparently in the FIU routine now...which means I need to work on my double toe back, and round off bhs back on hard floor....wow...should be interesting, Im off to Top Gun right now as a matter of fact....Holla!....lol, how urban was that ending...."Holla!"...lol
So I finally went home to get my bitching for my grades, and low and behold....my dad wasnt there, my mom was there though, she gave me a hundred bux, and was just like have fun at school, but get ur grades in check, we watched color purple for some reason she saw it as a sad movie......i on the other hand found some parts to be quite humorous..... I had to wait about 5 hours for them, and when he got there, my mother and him sat across from each other and put me at the head of the table......very unsettling. We talked about how bad I was doing, why I was doing it, and what i can do to fix, and whats going to happern if i dont......bottom line I dont fix it.....Im off to the Navy....youd think that after 17 years of raising me they would know....Im a FAG........wow......i mean really.
Whatever it went from them yelling at me to me getting emotional b/c I really dont like my father and he was like "it hurts that you have to lie to me"....and blah blahb blah, i stopped caring about him and what he thought a long time......sometimes.....you can build a wall so strong that NOTHING will ever be able to break it down, and for years each comment hes said about me or my mother or suomething hes neglected to do as a father is like him adding another brick to that wall....hell its a fucking fortress now....but you know what....Im really over him.....I just dont feel like trying to build the father son relationship anymore...I used to try so hard to get his approval, to not be gay, to be the ideal son, and it all went unnoticed...So now...Im living for me!
I know how important grades and everything are, but theres a certain way u have to tell me things...not that u have to baby me...but yelling will get u nothing but a blank stare.
Well, Im apparently in the FIU routine now...which means I need to work on my double toe back, and round off bhs back on hard floor....wow...should be interesting, Im off to Top Gun right now as a matter of fact....Holla!....lol, how urban was that ending...."Holla!"...lol