shitty!!!!!
Blah!!! I actually blew-up today....not just thought about a lot and not said anything but I blew-up.....and damn I feel so bad!! I basically told my gramma too much more of the shit I am going through and I will happily move out into my car...I would get more piece and quite out there. On a good note...my dad stopped by..actually ate dinner with me and held me while I cried...damn that felt good. Who knows he might actually try to be a father once again...the sound of that actually frightened me. Anywhoo...so as you can tell once again I had a bad day....and it will only get worse tomorrow....I got a very important meeting to attend...blah!! I hope to oneday regain my happiness but until I get over the struggles I put myself in it's not going to happen. Marvin still loves me and well as of right now that's all I care about. Anyways...I'm out..just wanted to drop in and say I'm still the same...fighting my battles at home waiting for the day I can finally move out like I had planned.
Adios!!!!!!!
Adios!!!!!!!