Abstract thoughts...

[drkangelmemnoch]

why is it so painful
why is it so blind
why is it when you think that you have found it
it leaves you high and dry
why is it when you feel like it'll never end
that it always inevitably does
why is it that the happiness comes
to be replaced with abject horror
Why is it when you feel your best
inside you are silently crying
why is it when you are finally happy
that inside you are actually dieing
why is it when you find the one
its always to far away
why is it when you think you love
you find that its dry and bleak
why when you find yourself
inside you cannot find the words to speak
why is this world so empty
when its filled on every street
why does this darkness surround me
and make it hard and think
Why is there always the question
why is there always the clause
why cant I just be happy
why cant it be just because
Why am I so lonely
why does it hurt so much
why when I am surrounded by people
do I see no one at all
when if ever will I be better than this
when will the final curtain fall
all these questions
the ones you ask deep in your soul
asking for redemption
asking for anything at all
these are the questions that plague me
the lost person who I am
screaming ever so silently
pretending to be just like them