Pained

[drkangelmemnoch]

Darkness
that is what I have become
losing touch with all that is around me
my body is cold and numb
I dont know how it happened
or what it took to get it done
but the darkness that I am now
that is what I have become
Pain is all I feel now
like a blanket that wraps up my soul
the feelings I have are excruciating now
like going from hot to cold
I dont have words to explain it
all I know is from inside it comes
I have tried to ignore it
but the pain is what I have become
I am cynical
this world has lost its shine
I have tried to be optimistic
but for me the sun doesnt shine
the dissassociativeness that that I have gained
has made me belive that everything wont be "just fine"
that the darkness and the pain I have gained
will forever shadow my days
that despite my best efforts to be warm and unpained
I will be this way forever and until I am done
bleeding broken lost and in pain...
because this is what I have become.