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[drkangelmemnoch]

So her I am waiting
waiting like so many times before
waiting for whats going to happen
waiting for that closing door
waiting for the darkness
again to rear and take control
waiting for eternal silence
that I have wanted for ever more
waiting, I am waiting...
though for what I do not know
I am waiting in this pain filled moment
watching as my blood pools on the floor
Im watching now as the lights get bright
and watching as they slowly grow dim
thinking back on my wasted life
and on all the demons that are lurking with in
thinking that I shouldnt have been born
that the spark of life was wasted on this one
that despite that life is a precious thing
that I am glad, for me, that it is almost done
as I watch and my libs grow heavy
I think of the darkness to come
and the painless bliss of eternity
and with one last effort I close my eyes
and notice that the pain is gone
and I feel nothing, what a surprise
and as my spirit lets go
lets go of the shell of what was once my life
I drift away in blissful silence
everything changed with a few quick cuts of a knife...