this seems to sum it up once again...

[drkangelmemnoch]

Why do I feel,
Why do I try,
Why cant I escape it,
Why cant I just die,
Why cant I remember,
Why cant I love,
Why cant I just surrender,
Why cant I rise above,
Why cant I fly,
Why cant I just go,
Why does life turn so bad
Why cant it just flow,
Why does everything feel so wrong,
Why cant I just be accepted,
Why is it I feel like I dont belong,
Why do I feel so unprotected,
Why cant it just be easy,
Why does it have to be so hard,
Why does it seem that I cant get ahead,
Why cant I stay away from harm,
Why does the brain to the heart have to lie,
Why do I have to feel this bad,
Why cant I just disappear,
Why cant I remember what I had,
Why cant it just let me see,
Why cant it just for once be clear,
Why do I even have to ask why,
Why does it have to be me.