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lately over the past few days i have had a lot of time to myself and i have spent it doing some self reflecting and reminiscing....
it seems to me that over my time that i spent in Pittsburgh, the first two quarters there, the city had a distinct feel and smell to me. but then as time went on, starting in the third quarter, the city began to lose what i had originally noticed. i'm not sure why but for some reason, the city seemed to grow more and more cold and empty. hell even my apartment doesn't have the same feel that it used to, it has changed itself and now feels less like the home it did. i've been trying to pinpoint what exactly i thought was in the air during that autumn and winter, maybe i've just become too familiar with the city. a lot of times i think back to all those evenings spent in Drew and Jay's apartment, mainly because it was always rather dark in there, usually the only light coming from the kitchen and the bathroom or bedroom. there was also the distinct aroma of both incense and a slight hint of marijuana.... i remember all these times vividly.
right now it kind of dawns on me that what might be causing my change in perception. starting with the breakup of me and sarah, then followed with pretty much everyone i knew leaving. for awhile there i was pretty much alone in that city. i wasn't dating anyone, both dan and chris had moved out, neither of my two new roommates were ever there, and i hadn't started hanging out with anyone else at this point. however, even though i am now starting to gain a few new friends, and hopefully a new female companion, things don't really feel the same.
damn i miss that first 6 months.
it seems to me that over my time that i spent in Pittsburgh, the first two quarters there, the city had a distinct feel and smell to me. but then as time went on, starting in the third quarter, the city began to lose what i had originally noticed. i'm not sure why but for some reason, the city seemed to grow more and more cold and empty. hell even my apartment doesn't have the same feel that it used to, it has changed itself and now feels less like the home it did. i've been trying to pinpoint what exactly i thought was in the air during that autumn and winter, maybe i've just become too familiar with the city. a lot of times i think back to all those evenings spent in Drew and Jay's apartment, mainly because it was always rather dark in there, usually the only light coming from the kitchen and the bathroom or bedroom. there was also the distinct aroma of both incense and a slight hint of marijuana.... i remember all these times vividly.
right now it kind of dawns on me that what might be causing my change in perception. starting with the breakup of me and sarah, then followed with pretty much everyone i knew leaving. for awhile there i was pretty much alone in that city. i wasn't dating anyone, both dan and chris had moved out, neither of my two new roommates were ever there, and i hadn't started hanging out with anyone else at this point. however, even though i am now starting to gain a few new friends, and hopefully a new female companion, things don't really feel the same.
damn i miss that first 6 months.