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look at my photobucket.
user = drivinghome.
...... i dont know what it is. but, as i was updating my last entry with the picture of my boyfriend and his friends, i was glancing through my photobucket and it occured to me... fuck, chan! you were gorgeous.
i remember i thought i was so ugly and blah blah.
maybe because months and months and months ago i was so involved with this computer shit and always taking pictures of myself that i was trying to look sexy or something. or feel sexy. and i couldnt quite understand why i never thought or felt it, but im guessing because i was so infatuated with it.
and now, honestly NOT giving a fuck about how i look or not trying to be or feel sexy because im comfortable with myself...ive realized just HOW good i looked.
i dont look any worse these days..probably more attractive if you ask people who see me in person, ect.
maybe its just something i've come to realize by not having this fucking computer in my face 2839849 hours a day.
fuck.
i dont know. but im baffled right now.
i was hot.
wtf?
....ignore this entry. i just had to type it out to know that i am REALLY thinking this.
breaking news?
user = drivinghome.
...... i dont know what it is. but, as i was updating my last entry with the picture of my boyfriend and his friends, i was glancing through my photobucket and it occured to me... fuck, chan! you were gorgeous.
i remember i thought i was so ugly and blah blah.
maybe because months and months and months ago i was so involved with this computer shit and always taking pictures of myself that i was trying to look sexy or something. or feel sexy. and i couldnt quite understand why i never thought or felt it, but im guessing because i was so infatuated with it.
and now, honestly NOT giving a fuck about how i look or not trying to be or feel sexy because im comfortable with myself...ive realized just HOW good i looked.
i dont look any worse these days..probably more attractive if you ask people who see me in person, ect.
maybe its just something i've come to realize by not having this fucking computer in my face 2839849 hours a day.
fuck.
i dont know. but im baffled right now.
i was hot.
wtf?
....ignore this entry. i just had to type it out to know that i am REALLY thinking this.
breaking news?