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halloween is here, practically.
it seems everyone is celebrating it a day early this year.
i admit i am...and well, on the actual 'holiday' as well.
i love halloween. i do.
but xmas still owns.
hmm. havent updated in awhile.
thats probably no surpise to those of you who still read my journal.
lets see..
news? hm. not really.
still living with josh in our apartment.
still working our asses off.
but, our lives have been spiced up a bit lately.
money is rolling in so we can spoil eachother from time to time.
also, my sisters fiance bought her a horse for their anniversary, so josh and i have been spending alot of time with her horse.
she needs to have someone train her horse, and since she cannot afford to pay someone to do it, i am the woman to call.
my boyfriend had the most beautiful idea for an xmas present for me.
he went totally out of his way to find out where my horse was.
see, i sold my horse a few years back and i still speak of him every so often. josh thought it'd be a great idea to find him and give him to me on xmas.
well, shit went down and he got really close to finding my horse and then something got in the way. so he was really upset and i didnt know quite why and then he spilled the beans to me. ......blah.... i think all of that made no sense but, whatever. he kept a secret, told me about it cause he got upset and then i found out. :)
so then we started talking and i got really excited about having my horse back but theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen, the logical side of me kicked in and i decided that it'd be best if i didnt have my horse come back into my life. ::sigh::
i couldnt afford the horse, nor would i have time for him....
plus if i marry josh we will move out of fl most likely, get a home, start a family.... just no time for a horse.
but he promised me if all goes as planned, when we finally DO get a home, it will have land...and we will each have a horse of our own.
soooooooo....who cares about that story? heh.
anyways, tonight is halloweeny for us. we're going to a friends halloween bash that is always just...fucking...insane.
im dressing up as a slutty 20s ganster full on with short pin striped mini skirt, jacket, fish nets, hat, and gun. and he is going as a scary as fuck michael meyers.
i plan on fucking him later when he's still in his costume.
that'll be......exciting!
blah. so.....life is good. yeah.
i actually watched legends of the fall last night and it sorta upset me.
in a sense i find myself kinda relating to that movie.
i miss a love i once had for someone who didnt feel the same way and sometimes i wonder if that one person were to confess their love to me today....
what the fuck would i do?
it wont ever happen so i wont have to worry, i suppose.
i feel so shitty even having those thoughts but i suppose its just cause im human.
blah. on that note im gonna go have a cigarette and then wash my car.
and yes, im smoking again.
it seems everyone is celebrating it a day early this year.
i admit i am...and well, on the actual 'holiday' as well.
i love halloween. i do.
but xmas still owns.
hmm. havent updated in awhile.
thats probably no surpise to those of you who still read my journal.
lets see..
news? hm. not really.
still living with josh in our apartment.
still working our asses off.
but, our lives have been spiced up a bit lately.
money is rolling in so we can spoil eachother from time to time.
also, my sisters fiance bought her a horse for their anniversary, so josh and i have been spending alot of time with her horse.
she needs to have someone train her horse, and since she cannot afford to pay someone to do it, i am the woman to call.
my boyfriend had the most beautiful idea for an xmas present for me.
he went totally out of his way to find out where my horse was.
see, i sold my horse a few years back and i still speak of him every so often. josh thought it'd be a great idea to find him and give him to me on xmas.
well, shit went down and he got really close to finding my horse and then something got in the way. so he was really upset and i didnt know quite why and then he spilled the beans to me. ......blah.... i think all of that made no sense but, whatever. he kept a secret, told me about it cause he got upset and then i found out. :)
so then we started talking and i got really excited about having my horse back but theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen, the logical side of me kicked in and i decided that it'd be best if i didnt have my horse come back into my life. ::sigh::
i couldnt afford the horse, nor would i have time for him....
plus if i marry josh we will move out of fl most likely, get a home, start a family.... just no time for a horse.
but he promised me if all goes as planned, when we finally DO get a home, it will have land...and we will each have a horse of our own.
soooooooo....who cares about that story? heh.
anyways, tonight is halloweeny for us. we're going to a friends halloween bash that is always just...fucking...insane.
im dressing up as a slutty 20s ganster full on with short pin striped mini skirt, jacket, fish nets, hat, and gun. and he is going as a scary as fuck michael meyers.
i plan on fucking him later when he's still in his costume.
that'll be......exciting!
blah. so.....life is good. yeah.
i actually watched legends of the fall last night and it sorta upset me.
in a sense i find myself kinda relating to that movie.
i miss a love i once had for someone who didnt feel the same way and sometimes i wonder if that one person were to confess their love to me today....
what the fuck would i do?
it wont ever happen so i wont have to worry, i suppose.
i feel so shitty even having those thoughts but i suppose its just cause im human.
blah. on that note im gonna go have a cigarette and then wash my car.
and yes, im smoking again.