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i am so sick of this bleeding!!!
it is getting in the way of our sex life.
which is no good.
although he claims he can go without for the rest of his life because he'll still have me. i on the other hand, disagree.
i love the cock. i want it all the time.
so i went to my baby's last night. we did a whole lot of nothing but lounge and talk and share soft kisses. we were both in a blah mood - he's feeling down on himself...which bothers me to no end...but i manage to find ways to make him smile. myself, i am still in the process to better myself...
i really should stop smoking.
i went two days without buying cigs, and then last night before heading out to lakeland, i purchased a pack.
i will quit, i swear. he and i both will.
i dont feel healthy right now. since my family came to visit for two weeks, i've been eating junk food...and i'm slowly pulling myself away from it and eating healthy again. my weight has been going up and down 3lbs.....grrrr...fucking a.
and i am worried on what is going on with my insides. my ovaries dont hurt or anything.. im not in pain....but my cooter wont stop bleeding!!!!!!!
may 6th i'll have some answers.
im just afraid of what they may be.
i think im going to live at home for a bit longer. that is, if my father doesn't go crazy anymore.
josh and i really need to save up some money before we get a place of our own.
we've pretty much decided on how we're gonna work shit out to get by comfortably. splitting the rent on a one bedroom won't be expensive at all...
and i, especially am gonna start buying things for our place.
we've also decided that we're gonna get a little doggie... a chi chi. arf!
i don't give a fuck on certian peoples opinions when they hear that he and i want to move in together.
it's OUR relationship. we know how good we are for eachother.
it will not get boring, the fire will not die out, and we won't get bored with eachother.
i just can't tolerate hearing people say the shit they say sometimes.
"well me and my gf/bf..."
i don't give a FUCK about you and your significant other. obviously, they're not for you. so shut the fuck up.
last night bothered me some. because i wanted to make love so badly. it's just the penetrating part that upsets my 'gina.
i'll settle for 69 any day.
mmmmmm yum.
we woke up late.... in the mornings when we wake up, we just look at eachother. time passes, and we don't speak any words. we smile and kiss and touch.
the feelings are so powerful.
holy fuck.
its so hard for me to even begin to express to him how i feel. how much he really means to me. in a sense i hate saying "i love you", because everyone says those words.
i want to make up our own saying.
some way to express myself...
when im with him i just think of how good things will be.
i think about having children and waking up to him every day and planting flowers while he mows the lawn. all of that shit.
drinking coffee on the backporch...holding his hand and exchanging smiles.....
it's just beautiful.
he's so gorgeous to me. inside and out.
it still blows me away that i have this man.
and i am his.
it is getting in the way of our sex life.
which is no good.
although he claims he can go without for the rest of his life because he'll still have me. i on the other hand, disagree.
i love the cock. i want it all the time.
so i went to my baby's last night. we did a whole lot of nothing but lounge and talk and share soft kisses. we were both in a blah mood - he's feeling down on himself...which bothers me to no end...but i manage to find ways to make him smile. myself, i am still in the process to better myself...
i really should stop smoking.
i went two days without buying cigs, and then last night before heading out to lakeland, i purchased a pack.
i will quit, i swear. he and i both will.
i dont feel healthy right now. since my family came to visit for two weeks, i've been eating junk food...and i'm slowly pulling myself away from it and eating healthy again. my weight has been going up and down 3lbs.....grrrr...fucking a.
and i am worried on what is going on with my insides. my ovaries dont hurt or anything.. im not in pain....but my cooter wont stop bleeding!!!!!!!
may 6th i'll have some answers.
im just afraid of what they may be.
i think im going to live at home for a bit longer. that is, if my father doesn't go crazy anymore.
josh and i really need to save up some money before we get a place of our own.
we've pretty much decided on how we're gonna work shit out to get by comfortably. splitting the rent on a one bedroom won't be expensive at all...
and i, especially am gonna start buying things for our place.
we've also decided that we're gonna get a little doggie... a chi chi. arf!
i don't give a fuck on certian peoples opinions when they hear that he and i want to move in together.
it's OUR relationship. we know how good we are for eachother.
it will not get boring, the fire will not die out, and we won't get bored with eachother.
i just can't tolerate hearing people say the shit they say sometimes.
"well me and my gf/bf..."
i don't give a FUCK about you and your significant other. obviously, they're not for you. so shut the fuck up.
last night bothered me some. because i wanted to make love so badly. it's just the penetrating part that upsets my 'gina.
i'll settle for 69 any day.
mmmmmm yum.
we woke up late.... in the mornings when we wake up, we just look at eachother. time passes, and we don't speak any words. we smile and kiss and touch.
the feelings are so powerful.
holy fuck.
its so hard for me to even begin to express to him how i feel. how much he really means to me. in a sense i hate saying "i love you", because everyone says those words.
i want to make up our own saying.
some way to express myself...
when im with him i just think of how good things will be.
i think about having children and waking up to him every day and planting flowers while he mows the lawn. all of that shit.
drinking coffee on the backporch...holding his hand and exchanging smiles.....
it's just beautiful.
he's so gorgeous to me. inside and out.
it still blows me away that i have this man.
and i am his.