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i'm so glad school is overwith. for the moment i have no more deadlines, little stress and it's almost Christmas! i'm excited to see my family and meet more of Dustin's family on Thursday.
now i have time to sit and think about things that i did in summer, when i had more free time. i want to read again. i want to write here more. i want to work out a few times a week. i want to see my girlfriends. i want to see my mommy.
i wrote the first draft of my reinstatement letter to ucsb today. yesterday i decided i wanted to get that and the application mailed out by the end of the week but today i found the email address to the readmit department and i wrote them asking a few questions. i dont think theyll get back to me until january because of winter break though. im taking a few days to have Dustin read my essay and perhaps another person just to make sure it makes sense. so i can't decide if i want to get it out in the mail this Friday and be done with it or if i should wait at least a week for the response from someone at school.
i really, really hope i get in. i really want it. i want the change. i want to not work and solely focus on school. i want to be mentally challenged. i want to move out with Dustin. i love thinking about us living together. to other people it may seem fast but we've spent a lot time together (almost all our free time) and it feels right. he's just the best. my parents like him a lot and i like his family too.
i can usually take things well so if i dont get in i'll just have to deal with it. i might cry a little bit but after a day or so i'll have to figure out what my plan will be. i'm putting csu san marcos in my head as a backup and i guess i'd just stay in my apartment until june. i'm already quitting my job so i'd be f'd in terms of money but whatever... i have family that i should be able to fall back on. it might be hard.
now i have time to sit and think about things that i did in summer, when i had more free time. i want to read again. i want to write here more. i want to work out a few times a week. i want to see my girlfriends. i want to see my mommy.
i wrote the first draft of my reinstatement letter to ucsb today. yesterday i decided i wanted to get that and the application mailed out by the end of the week but today i found the email address to the readmit department and i wrote them asking a few questions. i dont think theyll get back to me until january because of winter break though. im taking a few days to have Dustin read my essay and perhaps another person just to make sure it makes sense. so i can't decide if i want to get it out in the mail this Friday and be done with it or if i should wait at least a week for the response from someone at school.
i really, really hope i get in. i really want it. i want the change. i want to not work and solely focus on school. i want to be mentally challenged. i want to move out with Dustin. i love thinking about us living together. to other people it may seem fast but we've spent a lot time together (almost all our free time) and it feels right. he's just the best. my parents like him a lot and i like his family too.
i can usually take things well so if i dont get in i'll just have to deal with it. i might cry a little bit but after a day or so i'll have to figure out what my plan will be. i'm putting csu san marcos in my head as a backup and i guess i'd just stay in my apartment until june. i'm already quitting my job so i'd be f'd in terms of money but whatever... i have family that i should be able to fall back on. it might be hard.