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i have this really hard class, stats, and i'm going to keep complaining about it until it goes away at the end of the quarter (which is only 3 weeks away - hoooray!). i don't need this class anymore, i can't drop it (because then i would only have 2 classes and wouldn't be full-time) and i can't change it to P/NP (b/c of the my reinstatement stipulations). so, i have to live with it. it's VERY difficult and i'm SO not interested in it! ugh! i haven't gone to section in 3 weeks b/c we have quizzes or assignments every week and i'm know i'm going to fail it so i just don't go.
i can get an F in this class and still be ok because i'm on track to getting A's in my other two classes. my quarter GPA would be 2.67. but i'm having a hard time telling myself to not give up completely because if i can get a D or even a C (by some stroke of luck) it would look better, but it's so hard to not just say fuck it and just concentrate on the other 2.
i have a midterm in this class tomorrow and it'll probably go worse than the first one.
i have so much other shit to do this week too. a comp sci project due wednesday and a book for fem studies due thursday. i also have an eye appointment & need to go to the dmv to register my car, both wednesday.
in other news, i have another grandparent dying. my bio-mom's mom. it's to the point where she may pass tomorrow. i've only had one grandparent die before this month and it was my step-dads mom who i didn't really know that well, so i don't really count it. my grandpa who died 2 weeks ago was the first. and now this is the second. :( it's really hard because i feel really alone in the process. especially with my grandma because tbat part of my family is in chicago and arkansas and i obviously can't be there with them. i will really regret not getting to know my grandma better.... oh gosh... i can't write about it or else i'm gonna cry.
i can get an F in this class and still be ok because i'm on track to getting A's in my other two classes. my quarter GPA would be 2.67. but i'm having a hard time telling myself to not give up completely because if i can get a D or even a C (by some stroke of luck) it would look better, but it's so hard to not just say fuck it and just concentrate on the other 2.
i have a midterm in this class tomorrow and it'll probably go worse than the first one.
i have so much other shit to do this week too. a comp sci project due wednesday and a book for fem studies due thursday. i also have an eye appointment & need to go to the dmv to register my car, both wednesday.
in other news, i have another grandparent dying. my bio-mom's mom. it's to the point where she may pass tomorrow. i've only had one grandparent die before this month and it was my step-dads mom who i didn't really know that well, so i don't really count it. my grandpa who died 2 weeks ago was the first. and now this is the second. :( it's really hard because i feel really alone in the process. especially with my grandma because tbat part of my family is in chicago and arkansas and i obviously can't be there with them. i will really regret not getting to know my grandma better.... oh gosh... i can't write about it or else i'm gonna cry.