Consideration is a dying concept
I don't want to sob story about my life and ask for pity, but seriously, when is this shit going to stop? Why is it that I get screwed over? I must have a "bail on me" stamp plastered across my forehead cause there's no other explanation. I dealt with this shit all through this school year. I got bailed on for other girls, for other friends, and pretty much any excuse someone could find to ditch me. This school year alone probably brought my self esteem down as low as it's ever gotten and I try to forgive the instances and people who transgressed against me, but it's so tough. When is enough enough?
and then yesterday was just even more of a validation. How could you know about a party I'm inviting you to on thursday, tell me you'll be there on saturday, have me wake you up that (sunday) morning, then call me 30 minutes later to tell me you "have to" go to the beach with people you talked to at a bar the night before, but it'll only be for a couple of hours and you'll be at my house around 2 and you'll call me throughout the day to let me know where you are...then get so belligerently drunk at like 11 o'clock in the morning that you completely forget? and then have the nerve to say "cause you didn't call me, I completely forgot." No, honey, it was you who was supposed to call me. If you can't be
sober enough at noon, something's wrong.
I know that something's been wrong and I totally understand, but that is such a shitty thing to do, especially blaming alcohol for it. It just sucks that once again, everything comes before keeping plans with me. A person you met up with the night before, a girl you've been after for a couple of weeks, a friend who treats you like shit. Sometimes I wish I was the person that you do it for rather than do it to. I feel like I'm not worth giving a shit about when this happens and it happens too often to be a coincidence.
I think my problem is I don't tell people off when they do it. Maybe if I just let people know what shitty friends they are to me, they'd finally realize that yes, Pam does care that you're doing this and yes, she will mind and be hurt by this. I never bail on anyone when it comes to making plans with them. I've driven for 2 hours, getting lost the entire way just to make it to a show to watch you play for less than half an hour. I've sat up til 6 a.m. with you cause I didn't want to be rude and kick you out, I've listened to your problems and never yelled in your face "You're being fucking retarded, suck it the fuck up!" Maybe I'm a dying breed of person who thinks about how my actions might hurt people I care about.
I'm not asking to be the center of everyone's universe. All I ask is that you be considerate to me, yourselves, and each other. Do you think it's so hard? Seriously, comment me the answer cause I want to know.
and then yesterday was just even more of a validation. How could you know about a party I'm inviting you to on thursday, tell me you'll be there on saturday, have me wake you up that (sunday) morning, then call me 30 minutes later to tell me you "have to" go to the beach with people you talked to at a bar the night before, but it'll only be for a couple of hours and you'll be at my house around 2 and you'll call me throughout the day to let me know where you are...then get so belligerently drunk at like 11 o'clock in the morning that you completely forget? and then have the nerve to say "cause you didn't call me, I completely forgot." No, honey, it was you who was supposed to call me. If you can't be
sober enough at noon, something's wrong.
I know that something's been wrong and I totally understand, but that is such a shitty thing to do, especially blaming alcohol for it. It just sucks that once again, everything comes before keeping plans with me. A person you met up with the night before, a girl you've been after for a couple of weeks, a friend who treats you like shit. Sometimes I wish I was the person that you do it for rather than do it to. I feel like I'm not worth giving a shit about when this happens and it happens too often to be a coincidence.
I think my problem is I don't tell people off when they do it. Maybe if I just let people know what shitty friends they are to me, they'd finally realize that yes, Pam does care that you're doing this and yes, she will mind and be hurt by this. I never bail on anyone when it comes to making plans with them. I've driven for 2 hours, getting lost the entire way just to make it to a show to watch you play for less than half an hour. I've sat up til 6 a.m. with you cause I didn't want to be rude and kick you out, I've listened to your problems and never yelled in your face "You're being fucking retarded, suck it the fuck up!" Maybe I'm a dying breed of person who thinks about how my actions might hurt people I care about.
I'm not asking to be the center of everyone's universe. All I ask is that you be considerate to me, yourselves, and each other. Do you think it's so hard? Seriously, comment me the answer cause I want to know.