it's one of those nights where I feel like the world is collapsing in upon me one flake at a time...
It's one of those nights where the world goes quiet and you're stuck with your thoughts. And frankly, I don't want to be. Too much stuff has marked this weekend as horrendous and most of it doesn't involve me, but my heart goes out to the people hurting right now. To be dying at the age of 45 after being told a year ago you'd beaten your demon and leaving behind 3 children and a loving husband is heartbreaking. Having your 16 year old daughter in the hospital in critical condition because she was fooling around in her newly licensed friend's car is terrible. I can't imagine the pain of losing a parent. But I know each of you is doing what you have to do and I only hope you have 100 times the strength I would have. My prayers are with you all.
I feel like a jerk for being upset about my minuscule issues. I guess it's just been coming for a little while now and it just got worse tonight cause my heart goes out to all of you and I had no one to talk to about everything. My best friend is over an hour away and everyone else has their own stuff they're dealing with which I totally understand. There are pressing issues that need to be dealt with and I just really hope for the best for everyone. I leave you with a fitting song....
So quiet
It's neither heaven nor space, it's just high
And the ring around the moon
looks like light and love
Neither of which I get enough of
Down there
Where alot of people lie, In a deep sleep
And months on end go by, in a single week
Down there
But much too slow
Can't you see I'm trying so hard to plug up this hole
The air is running out we're sinking much too low
And if you sit long enough
you can hear ghost trains
As if the city speed
is just in our brains
And coke's close as we get to sugar cane
Down there
But much too slow
Can't you see I'm trying so hard to plug up this hole,
The air is running out we're sinking much too low
So quiet, So quiet
It's neither heaven nor space, It's just high
And the ring around the moon
Looks like light and love
Neither of which I get enough of
the lyrics don't do the song half its justice, but yeah... The silence is bad sometimes. All in all, I count my blessing and am so grateful to have what I have.
I feel like a jerk for being upset about my minuscule issues. I guess it's just been coming for a little while now and it just got worse tonight cause my heart goes out to all of you and I had no one to talk to about everything. My best friend is over an hour away and everyone else has their own stuff they're dealing with which I totally understand. There are pressing issues that need to be dealt with and I just really hope for the best for everyone. I leave you with a fitting song....
So quiet
It's neither heaven nor space, it's just high
And the ring around the moon
looks like light and love
Neither of which I get enough of
Down there
Where alot of people lie, In a deep sleep
And months on end go by, in a single week
Down there
But much too slow
Can't you see I'm trying so hard to plug up this hole
The air is running out we're sinking much too low
And if you sit long enough
you can hear ghost trains
As if the city speed
is just in our brains
And coke's close as we get to sugar cane
Down there
But much too slow
Can't you see I'm trying so hard to plug up this hole,
The air is running out we're sinking much too low
So quiet, So quiet
It's neither heaven nor space, It's just high
And the ring around the moon
Looks like light and love
Neither of which I get enough of
the lyrics don't do the song half its justice, but yeah... The silence is bad sometimes. All in all, I count my blessing and am so grateful to have what I have.