The Good Old Days
I'd wondered for a while when the day would come, when I started reminiscing about "the good old days," but I think being back home has certainly sent me on that trip. I talk with Steve every day, but it's still not like it used to be. We have to work to find stuff to talk about because our lives are so separated that we can't talk about mutual experiences. I think something I really miss the most is hanging out with him every weekend. Early high school, before girls, before work, before hard classes, it was just coasting. Life was so simple, there literally were NO worries (except maybe speed traps). I got to thinking about how great it was back then. hard to believe it was 4 years ago. That's ridiculous.
Time has also really been put into a larger perspective for me. I'm able to say that I haven't talked with some of my friends for two years. years used to be such a long time. They just aren't anymore. I think about my future with Lauren, and that's going to be another 4 years until we get to live together permanently. That seems like a long time, but I look at how fast what's passed has passed, and I'm comforted, at least a little bit. What happened to those people? The people I used to know. Obviously I don't know them anymore, people change. There's another thing I wondered when I'd start saying: "what ever happened to..."
That didn't really upset me too bad when I left high school though. I always figured that people would do a good job keeping in touch. Now, with some people, I have NO clue how to get ahold of them. I guess my lack of worry back then (in the good old days) has now been replaced with disappointment. There are a couple things I wish I never had to feel, but will no doubt continue to be subjected to.
I figured I might as well worry this time around. I'm moving dorms, and a couple people I know graduated. I guess I didn't really worry this time, so much as wonder. I mean, the friends I have at IU aren't as close (or so I thought) as the friends I had in high school. Josh and Jason graduated. Josh, I'll probably miss a bit, because he was always nice to me. Jason, I'm pretty indifferent. The rest of the Joto2 people though, I'm not so sure about. I'll probably be back a couple times next year to visit, and I know quite a few of them will be back. Sean, Ross, Brandon, Matt, Arnav, etc. But I won't see them on the daily basis I have these past two years. I guess that's more odd to think about than saddening. They'll still be there. Zennie, Danny, Gavin and Kieth, i'm not too sure about. I know they're moving away from campus, but i wonder if that means I'll see them less, or not at all.
I suppose all of this depends on their willingness to invite me over, considering I will have a key to neither building. Last year I didn't deal with the separation a
nxiety as much I guess because the people who were graduating were staying in town, and I had Lauren. Corey's really been the only person to actively keep in touch with people by having his dinner parties. The others... I just don't know about. I usually see everyone around, but it's hardly a good time for me whenever I do. Regardless, I just wonder how it will end up being next year. Whole new place, new people, better environment, certainly a better view. Still no Lauren though.
Speaking of, she just found herself a really neat apartment in Syracuse. It has a patio, a foyer, and a bar, all of which are quite cool. Her favourite part, of course, is the walk-in closet that leads to the bathroom. This is, of course, a continuance in her emulation of Carrie Bradshaw. My only concern with the place is that it's on the ground floor and has two entrances. I'm just being paranoid about crime, but I worry naturally about my baby. I love her, and I don't know what I'd do without her. I wonder if they allow dogs at her complex. Oh well, things for another day. I'm tired and frustrated, time for bed.
Time has also really been put into a larger perspective for me. I'm able to say that I haven't talked with some of my friends for two years. years used to be such a long time. They just aren't anymore. I think about my future with Lauren, and that's going to be another 4 years until we get to live together permanently. That seems like a long time, but I look at how fast what's passed has passed, and I'm comforted, at least a little bit. What happened to those people? The people I used to know. Obviously I don't know them anymore, people change. There's another thing I wondered when I'd start saying: "what ever happened to..."
That didn't really upset me too bad when I left high school though. I always figured that people would do a good job keeping in touch. Now, with some people, I have NO clue how to get ahold of them. I guess my lack of worry back then (in the good old days) has now been replaced with disappointment. There are a couple things I wish I never had to feel, but will no doubt continue to be subjected to.
I figured I might as well worry this time around. I'm moving dorms, and a couple people I know graduated. I guess I didn't really worry this time, so much as wonder. I mean, the friends I have at IU aren't as close (or so I thought) as the friends I had in high school. Josh and Jason graduated. Josh, I'll probably miss a bit, because he was always nice to me. Jason, I'm pretty indifferent. The rest of the Joto2 people though, I'm not so sure about. I'll probably be back a couple times next year to visit, and I know quite a few of them will be back. Sean, Ross, Brandon, Matt, Arnav, etc. But I won't see them on the daily basis I have these past two years. I guess that's more odd to think about than saddening. They'll still be there. Zennie, Danny, Gavin and Kieth, i'm not too sure about. I know they're moving away from campus, but i wonder if that means I'll see them less, or not at all.
I suppose all of this depends on their willingness to invite me over, considering I will have a key to neither building. Last year I didn't deal with the separation a
nxiety as much I guess because the people who were graduating were staying in town, and I had Lauren. Corey's really been the only person to actively keep in touch with people by having his dinner parties. The others... I just don't know about. I usually see everyone around, but it's hardly a good time for me whenever I do. Regardless, I just wonder how it will end up being next year. Whole new place, new people, better environment, certainly a better view. Still no Lauren though.
Speaking of, she just found herself a really neat apartment in Syracuse. It has a patio, a foyer, and a bar, all of which are quite cool. Her favourite part, of course, is the walk-in closet that leads to the bathroom. This is, of course, a continuance in her emulation of Carrie Bradshaw. My only concern with the place is that it's on the ground floor and has two entrances. I'm just being paranoid about crime, but I worry naturally about my baby. I love her, and I don't know what I'd do without her. I wonder if they allow dogs at her complex. Oh well, things for another day. I'm tired and frustrated, time for bed.