you're only a day away.
tomorrow, i go to columbia to stay with an ex for a couple days.
i also find out today, if my life is going to change forever.
i figure out if i'm pregnant.
that subject, i don't want to touch until for sure.
back to the visiting my ex bullshit, about a week ago, we were talking when i asked when we would hang out, he followed that he has these next two days off, and so i decided to come up. this ex, however i claim to still be in love with, and to me, if i can literally say i love you, you must be a god, due to lately, not many people really matter to me. we were together for only a short time, when he decided to go back to his college town, and when done, realized he doesn't want to be tied down anymore, this is the kid that led me down a path of lust, drugs, alcohol and all other sorts, actually ended up with me close to in the mental hospital... so, now i'm going to sign myself up for it all over again. and i've decided i'm giving it my all, even if i do come back with nothing, i'm not chancing the ifs.
ANY ADVICE?