Goodbye 2004
I just got home. I walked through the door at 11:59 exactly. Happy New Year to me. Work was ok. I can't frickin believe how many people came in to get coffee. Don't you people have places to be? I am so exhausted and really all I want to do is crawl into my covers and sleep.
Bur right now I can't. My brain is working overdrive again. I got more bad news concerning my mother. This time it has nothing to do with the alcohol. That started to get easier to deal with it. Disappointing, but at least I always knew somewhere that it was a possibility. I guess I had kinda shut myself off from it, at least in the sense that I was burnt emotionally from it. But tonight was different. Tonight I felt not angry, not disappointed, just scared. My sister had to call 911 to have police escort my mother to the hospital. My mom apparently has been feeling really depressed and today she just wasn't herself. I don't really know the details as my sister is out right now, but I'm just kind of freaked out. I know wah wah wah more crap in Jason's life, but I don't know where else to vent any of this. Guess I thought this winter would be different, but it's just the same song with a different tune.
Anyways, I hope all of you had a good new year's. To my friends here, thanks for making me like California again. To all of my friends on the east coast, I miss you more than you'll probably ever realize. You guys made the first half of 2004 and in different ways the second, a pretty good year for me. I heart you all and see you soon.
Goodnight, for tomorrow we start anew...
Bur right now I can't. My brain is working overdrive again. I got more bad news concerning my mother. This time it has nothing to do with the alcohol. That started to get easier to deal with it. Disappointing, but at least I always knew somewhere that it was a possibility. I guess I had kinda shut myself off from it, at least in the sense that I was burnt emotionally from it. But tonight was different. Tonight I felt not angry, not disappointed, just scared. My sister had to call 911 to have police escort my mother to the hospital. My mom apparently has been feeling really depressed and today she just wasn't herself. I don't really know the details as my sister is out right now, but I'm just kind of freaked out. I know wah wah wah more crap in Jason's life, but I don't know where else to vent any of this. Guess I thought this winter would be different, but it's just the same song with a different tune.
Anyways, I hope all of you had a good new year's. To my friends here, thanks for making me like California again. To all of my friends on the east coast, I miss you more than you'll probably ever realize. You guys made the first half of 2004 and in different ways the second, a pretty good year for me. I heart you all and see you soon.
Goodnight, for tomorrow we start anew...