SHUT UP AND LIVE:
Peter Gresser says:
why worried?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
that i'm not gonna want to leave.
Peter Gresser says:
heh.
Peter Gresser says:
well, if that's the case, prep for staying. I think you'll actually *have* to go back to Ireland for some period of time, though I don't offhand remember what that period of time is, before you can apply for a resident visa, but it's worth the work, innit?
Peter Gresser says:
(hey, my computer's needing me to restart, 'cause I've just installed new software. If you'll give me a couple minutes, I will be back, OK?)
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
kk
Peter Gresser says:
I am back, hello.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Sup sup.
Peter Gresser says:
You know, I feel bad. I was actually in New York last week, but didn't get the chance to meet up with anybody but chris.
Peter Gresser says:
(we were here: www.nytvf.com)
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
i've been working solidly anyway.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
it's so weird.
Peter Gresser says:
well that's good, though, innit?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It's fine. It's life.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I've never minded working.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
but the rest of it.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I had almost a chip on my shoulder about everything the first month.
Peter Gresser says:
how so?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
and the second was ups and downs.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Oh, I thught americans were all storyless and shit.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
blah blah blah.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And it hadn't even crossed my mind that I'm a free agent now.
Peter Gresser says:
LOL
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I kept saying it's hard to adjust to the culture or the city, or that there wasn't any fun to be had.
Peter Gresser says:
we're not storyless, we just don't share our stories in quite the same way.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
No. But it's not even about that. I actually think it was us going about it wrong.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
In the last two or three weeks I've had some of the best times I've had.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I don;t mean ever, because my life is fun.
Peter Gresser says:
but still, fun.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
well yeah. what you'd expect from new york.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
what i'd expect from myself
Peter Gresser says:
mm. And so now you're wanting to stay forEVAR
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It's not really about America, it's just when I get home, I'm free to go anywhere. I can't go back to Dublin, I have no where to be for Christmas.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I don;t have anything I have to do.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I'm starting to realise that as far as starting a new page goes, I've started it here, now.
Peter Gresser says:
maybe time for spain?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I have to move out of this sublet at the end of the month.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I just want to find my own room in NY and begin renting and keep my job and get to know these stupid people better.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Hm.
Peter Gresser says:
where do you think you'll go at the end of the month then?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
What I would love to do is just move out of here and move into my own room in NY,
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
kEEP MY JOB.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I have friends here, people to call and stuff.
Peter Gresser says:
right, good good.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
But it's weird that I need to make a start and I already made one.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I met this boy.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Don't laugh.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I know that's stupid.
Peter Gresser says:
no no, go on.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I was sleeping with like three guys this time last week, here and there.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
But I met this guy on Monday or something, and went out with him on Friday.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
No, thursday.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I can tell he's just come out the other end of what I'm going into.
Peter Gresser says:
well there you go. If he's a good guy, and you like him and the feeling is mutual, good!
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It makes a lot of sense, which I dpn;t right now.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
But he made me think of how good it is to be a good person, and to be together, and to enjoy life and to work for things and to be open to people.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And to apreciate things.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I guess that's what I'm feeling all over, and putting into action a bit slower than I'm learning the theories (damn college education).
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I guess I'm worried if I go home now I won;t be able to, like, won;t be ready enough to put it into practise, or forget how or, just not be ready.
Peter Gresser says:
curse education!!
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Oh I do.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Most people seem to go to college to get their 'living' out of the way before they have to start the hard part.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It just fuckedme up the opposite way.
Peter Gresser says:
you're like, "now I'm educated and GOD DAMNIT WHY IS EVERYBODY IN SHORT PANTS GET A GODDAMNED BOOK PEOPLE"
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
This guy, we stole toferky and drank beer in union sq. We ate chips and guacamole and snogged in H and M. We got kicked out of a cab for kising and got the wrong train, saw a band, smoked weed in a garage, got thai food and went to the park, built a bike... blah blah blah.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
d he's awesome.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
t the point it, that's more fun in one day than I've had in months.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
he's just into doing shit, and being himself and getting the best and working hard and all that. Meh. I forget what that's like.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I felt like I'd grown up, in a good way. Like this is exactly what I should feel like as I turn 24.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
No bullshit.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Bullshit is bullshit.
Peter Gresser says:
are you only twenty four?
Peter Gresser says:
I pegged you as older, for some reason. That's not a bad thing, btw.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Almost.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
They guessed my age in work. They guessed 28. And this guy I went on a couple of dates with thought so too.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
They were all like "Oh, it's just the way you carry yourself." I don;t know.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I know I'm a babby.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I'm doing alright for 23 years in the bag.
Peter Gresser says:
indeed!~
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
A lot of little fuck ups are worse than one big one.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I've fucked up plety. and I don;t want to be the guy who fucks up.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Like forever.
Peter Gresser says:
Just don't become a male model then.
Peter Gresser says:
or d.
Peter Gresser says:
do.
Peter Gresser says:
you know; whatever works either way.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
be a model male, not a male model.
Peter Gresser says:
or a model male model.
Peter Gresser says:
a model male roll model role model.
model male says:
I think the thing i'm taking away from this is from the people I've met who seem to really enjoy being themselves.
model male says:
So I think the point is, don't force yourself to enjoy things you do that you don't enjoy, like being a fuck up. Or having no confidence.
model male says:
I enjoy myself a lot more when I'm not a mess, so I should do what I enjoy more, and not be one.
Peter Gresser says:
indeed.
model male says:
Is that really obvious?
model male says:
It's new to me: I never really put together if you don;t want to feel bad about getting to work 20 minutes late (becuase I do), go to bed earlier, be organised.
Peter Gresser says:
well, yes and no. The thing is when you're a mess- and this isn't the specific you, it's very much the general you- it's awfully easy to convince yourself that you are, in fact, having the time of your life, doing the absolute best you've ever done, etc. etc.
Peter Gresser says:
when you're NOT a mess, there's a bit more perspective, because it's not necessarily so forced.
model male says:
If you want to go out and get drunk the night before work, by all means do, but make sure when you roll in 20 minutes late that it was worth it, becuase it was what you wanted to do. Half the time when I'm late, i was just sittingup late.
model male says:
I think it was good to be a mess. I think it college I would much rather ahve been working all hours in restaurants and doing all sorts of stuff. I don;t think i was a mess in college beuxase I was partying a lot, I think I was a mess in college becuase I wasn't supposed to be in college.
model male says:
The conflict was then mess, not the actual stuff that people would consider messy.
Peter Gresser says:
I'm kind of glad I'm not in the college-time anymore.
model male says:
Absolutly.
model male says:
This guy, I was pretty much blown away by him.
model male says:
For totally different reasons he was blown away by me.
Peter Gresser says:
wonderful!
Peter Gresser says:
hey, I need to scoot. Matt just got home from work (speaking of guys one is blown away by)
Peter Gresser says:
chat later?
model male says:
Cool .
model male says:
I'mma bed.
model male says:
ight as well start tomorrow.
Peter Gresser says:
do it!
Peter Gresser says:
later!
model male says:
Oh hey.
model male says:
one sec
Peter Gresser says:
yeeeeeeeez?
model male says:
http://flickr.com/photos/polysonic/1415946668/ that's him- now you can go.
model male says:
x
Peter Gresser says:
oh hey he's handsome!
Peter Gresser says:
alright. Later!
model male says:
oh snap!
model male says:
x
why worried?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
that i'm not gonna want to leave.
Peter Gresser says:
heh.
Peter Gresser says:
well, if that's the case, prep for staying. I think you'll actually *have* to go back to Ireland for some period of time, though I don't offhand remember what that period of time is, before you can apply for a resident visa, but it's worth the work, innit?
Peter Gresser says:
(hey, my computer's needing me to restart, 'cause I've just installed new software. If you'll give me a couple minutes, I will be back, OK?)
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
kk
Peter Gresser says:
I am back, hello.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Sup sup.
Peter Gresser says:
You know, I feel bad. I was actually in New York last week, but didn't get the chance to meet up with anybody but chris.
Peter Gresser says:
(we were here: www.nytvf.com)
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
i've been working solidly anyway.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
it's so weird.
Peter Gresser says:
well that's good, though, innit?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It's fine. It's life.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I've never minded working.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
but the rest of it.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I had almost a chip on my shoulder about everything the first month.
Peter Gresser says:
how so?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
and the second was ups and downs.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Oh, I thught americans were all storyless and shit.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
blah blah blah.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And it hadn't even crossed my mind that I'm a free agent now.
Peter Gresser says:
LOL
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I kept saying it's hard to adjust to the culture or the city, or that there wasn't any fun to be had.
Peter Gresser says:
we're not storyless, we just don't share our stories in quite the same way.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
No. But it's not even about that. I actually think it was us going about it wrong.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
In the last two or three weeks I've had some of the best times I've had.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I don;t mean ever, because my life is fun.
Peter Gresser says:
but still, fun.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
well yeah. what you'd expect from new york.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
what i'd expect from myself
Peter Gresser says:
mm. And so now you're wanting to stay forEVAR
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It's not really about America, it's just when I get home, I'm free to go anywhere. I can't go back to Dublin, I have no where to be for Christmas.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I don;t have anything I have to do.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I'm starting to realise that as far as starting a new page goes, I've started it here, now.
Peter Gresser says:
maybe time for spain?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I have to move out of this sublet at the end of the month.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I just want to find my own room in NY and begin renting and keep my job and get to know these stupid people better.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Hm.
Peter Gresser says:
where do you think you'll go at the end of the month then?
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
What I would love to do is just move out of here and move into my own room in NY,
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
kEEP MY JOB.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I have friends here, people to call and stuff.
Peter Gresser says:
right, good good.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
But it's weird that I need to make a start and I already made one.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I met this boy.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Don't laugh.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I know that's stupid.
Peter Gresser says:
no no, go on.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I was sleeping with like three guys this time last week, here and there.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
But I met this guy on Monday or something, and went out with him on Friday.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
No, thursday.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I can tell he's just come out the other end of what I'm going into.
Peter Gresser says:
well there you go. If he's a good guy, and you like him and the feeling is mutual, good!
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It makes a lot of sense, which I dpn;t right now.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
But he made me think of how good it is to be a good person, and to be together, and to enjoy life and to work for things and to be open to people.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And to apreciate things.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I guess that's what I'm feeling all over, and putting into action a bit slower than I'm learning the theories (damn college education).
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I guess I'm worried if I go home now I won;t be able to, like, won;t be ready enough to put it into practise, or forget how or, just not be ready.
Peter Gresser says:
curse education!!
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Oh I do.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Most people seem to go to college to get their 'living' out of the way before they have to start the hard part.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
It just fuckedme up the opposite way.
Peter Gresser says:
you're like, "now I'm educated and GOD DAMNIT WHY IS EVERYBODY IN SHORT PANTS GET A GODDAMNED BOOK PEOPLE"
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
This guy, we stole toferky and drank beer in union sq. We ate chips and guacamole and snogged in H and M. We got kicked out of a cab for kising and got the wrong train, saw a band, smoked weed in a garage, got thai food and went to the park, built a bike... blah blah blah.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
d he's awesome.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
t the point it, that's more fun in one day than I've had in months.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
he's just into doing shit, and being himself and getting the best and working hard and all that. Meh. I forget what that's like.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I felt like I'd grown up, in a good way. Like this is exactly what I should feel like as I turn 24.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
No bullshit.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Bullshit is bullshit.
Peter Gresser says:
are you only twenty four?
Peter Gresser says:
I pegged you as older, for some reason. That's not a bad thing, btw.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Almost.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
They guessed my age in work. They guessed 28. And this guy I went on a couple of dates with thought so too.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
They were all like "Oh, it's just the way you carry yourself." I don;t know.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I know I'm a babby.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
And I'm doing alright for 23 years in the bag.
Peter Gresser says:
indeed!~
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
A lot of little fuck ups are worse than one big one.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
I've fucked up plety. and I don;t want to be the guy who fucks up.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
Like forever.
Peter Gresser says:
Just don't become a male model then.
Peter Gresser says:
or d.
Peter Gresser says:
do.
Peter Gresser says:
you know; whatever works either way.
council estate sex - tchaicovsky is eletro says:
be a model male, not a male model.
Peter Gresser says:
or a model male model.
Peter Gresser says:
a model male roll model role model.
model male says:
I think the thing i'm taking away from this is from the people I've met who seem to really enjoy being themselves.
model male says:
So I think the point is, don't force yourself to enjoy things you do that you don't enjoy, like being a fuck up. Or having no confidence.
model male says:
I enjoy myself a lot more when I'm not a mess, so I should do what I enjoy more, and not be one.
Peter Gresser says:
indeed.
model male says:
Is that really obvious?
model male says:
It's new to me: I never really put together if you don;t want to feel bad about getting to work 20 minutes late (becuase I do), go to bed earlier, be organised.
Peter Gresser says:
well, yes and no. The thing is when you're a mess- and this isn't the specific you, it's very much the general you- it's awfully easy to convince yourself that you are, in fact, having the time of your life, doing the absolute best you've ever done, etc. etc.
Peter Gresser says:
when you're NOT a mess, there's a bit more perspective, because it's not necessarily so forced.
model male says:
If you want to go out and get drunk the night before work, by all means do, but make sure when you roll in 20 minutes late that it was worth it, becuase it was what you wanted to do. Half the time when I'm late, i was just sittingup late.
model male says:
I think it was good to be a mess. I think it college I would much rather ahve been working all hours in restaurants and doing all sorts of stuff. I don;t think i was a mess in college beuxase I was partying a lot, I think I was a mess in college becuase I wasn't supposed to be in college.
model male says:
The conflict was then mess, not the actual stuff that people would consider messy.
Peter Gresser says:
I'm kind of glad I'm not in the college-time anymore.
model male says:
Absolutly.
model male says:
This guy, I was pretty much blown away by him.
model male says:
For totally different reasons he was blown away by me.
Peter Gresser says:
wonderful!
Peter Gresser says:
hey, I need to scoot. Matt just got home from work (speaking of guys one is blown away by)
Peter Gresser says:
chat later?
model male says:
Cool .
model male says:
I'mma bed.
model male says:
ight as well start tomorrow.
Peter Gresser says:
do it!
Peter Gresser says:
later!
model male says:
Oh hey.
model male says:
one sec
Peter Gresser says:
yeeeeeeeez?
model male says:
http://flickr.com/photos/polysonic/1415946668/ that's him- now you can go.
model male says:
x
Peter Gresser says:
oh hey he's handsome!
Peter Gresser says:
alright. Later!
model male says:
oh snap!
model male says:
x