...just depressed
Life sucks you know.
Yeah, I´m sure you all know that already.
You come to this world crying, wet and hungry... and then things get worse.
It´s not like if I could say that things were different and easier when I was a kid, I´ve always been a lonely and sad child, even in kindergarden I knew I was different from the other kids. I was a kid, I knew nothing, but when while I learned about this world everything always seemed so stupid and sad, and I hated the world, and I hated myself, and I wanted to NOT be alive, but I didn´t even knew the word 'suicide' till I got out of the elementary school... things got better, yeah, I managed to be happy at last a few years, making people leave me alone, just how I liked it to be, were the greatest years of my life, then on high school I met a couple of friend, okay, maybe more than a couple of friend and I even felt in love, it wast my firts time having a crush on someone, but it weres the more hurtful, even worse than having your beloved one take away by death because a brain cancer, or been ignored/hated by that special one (at last I could ignore/hate him back), or never been able to tell him/her about your feelings... and it´s because that person after all the time that we spend together never understood what our relationship meaned to me, and destroyed our friendship, betrayed my trust and hurted my pride, and I would never be able to forget anything of that,... because I still care for that person, just as much as I still care for every person that I have even loved, even if they have hurt me once... or twice.
And now, what to say?, I´m finishing my studies for the licenciature of my career on this week, and I´m so afraid of what comes next. I´m going to be send to an hospital, to something I don´t feel like trying to explain on english, this is not my native language, so it´s hard to translate it been myself as depressed as I´m... then why I´m writing all this on english????¡¡¡ dunno. Let just hope that lady luck smile to me this time, okay.
no love
no brain
no good looks
.... life sucks
Yeah, I´m sure you all know that already.
You come to this world crying, wet and hungry... and then things get worse.
It´s not like if I could say that things were different and easier when I was a kid, I´ve always been a lonely and sad child, even in kindergarden I knew I was different from the other kids. I was a kid, I knew nothing, but when while I learned about this world everything always seemed so stupid and sad, and I hated the world, and I hated myself, and I wanted to NOT be alive, but I didn´t even knew the word 'suicide' till I got out of the elementary school... things got better, yeah, I managed to be happy at last a few years, making people leave me alone, just how I liked it to be, were the greatest years of my life, then on high school I met a couple of friend, okay, maybe more than a couple of friend and I even felt in love, it wast my firts time having a crush on someone, but it weres the more hurtful, even worse than having your beloved one take away by death because a brain cancer, or been ignored/hated by that special one (at last I could ignore/hate him back), or never been able to tell him/her about your feelings... and it´s because that person after all the time that we spend together never understood what our relationship meaned to me, and destroyed our friendship, betrayed my trust and hurted my pride, and I would never be able to forget anything of that,... because I still care for that person, just as much as I still care for every person that I have even loved, even if they have hurt me once... or twice.
And now, what to say?, I´m finishing my studies for the licenciature of my career on this week, and I´m so afraid of what comes next. I´m going to be send to an hospital, to something I don´t feel like trying to explain on english, this is not my native language, so it´s hard to translate it been myself as depressed as I´m... then why I´m writing all this on english????¡¡¡ dunno. Let just hope that lady luck smile to me this time, okay.
no love
no brain
no good looks
.... life sucks