The Wait Of A Life Time... A Time To Prove My Self
As i sit an wait i can't do anything but cry. i have cryed so much it just hurts, nothing comes out it just, just hurts. that up hill roller-coaster has just dropped to a four-G turn and barrel-roll. the kind when you flip and cross and your stomach does the same thing and then you just throw everything up. the wait for this phone call is so important and so suspenseful, it's driving me crazy off the wall even. it'll all take time. emotions, temptations, every chemical that drives a human to do what they do, to screw up everything that could have possibly be the best thing that has ever happened to me. You call it depression, i call it a state of mind, a time that i take to think of what has happened to analise the circumstances. To hold on to what i have worked so hard to gain. To be faithful to myself and my feelings and to not let go of it.