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this day .. this day .. last day. Today wasn't just a bad day, it was the last day. This is the last day i ever write in my journal. this is last day that i see him. 8 months just totally away, becasue i can't handle it. i don't think people read these things much anyway. if they did, and if they could really read me. i don't really know why i did it, but i just did. I'm hurt and i haev no one to turn to, but it's something i brought upon myself. I have a strong feeling that I may just not live much longer either. I know im dying, inside and out. IT's the way he makes me feel. Everything is killing me. I wish I knew waht to say, but if i did, he'd be smiling. I'd be smiling. There's nothing more to say, except breaking up is a bitch, just ask Lane Meyer, but unlike Beth I feel, sooo much remorse. I'll always love riley , always. I'll always love you like a mother fucker.