its my party and i'll cry if i want to...

[drinkchaitea]

Shannah and I are having a disagreement whether to have a birthday party or not. I am afraid of inviting too many girls and not enough guys. She just wants to have a party. But I dont feel like having a party cuz I dont know who my true friends are. It doesnt feel right having a party and inviting people who decline every time i invite them over. I just dont get it. Now we're both pissed at eachother and ourselves because we hate our lives. Our lives suck. We think our friends suck but we're not sure. Most of our friends dont make time to spend with us so I cant depend on anyone. If i had a boyfriend this would all be different, I know it.

So, im debating on inviting this guy to formal right? If i ask him, my other friend might get mad because he likes me. But i have more interest in the other guy. I dont want to be rude but hes got to get over me and being all upset when i dont "obey" him. Yea, thats the story of my life... if u have any comments or ideas, LMK plz