*sigh*
I never post anymore, it seems. I don't know, seems like my life isn't that thrilling, really. Nothing pissing me off, nothing making me super-duper happy, just . . . taking up space. *sigh*
Well, Justin was here Easter weekend (but didn't stay for Easter - he had things to grade, and he's not Christian anyway), and we had a good time, but, again, sort of bittersweet, you know? The distance makes things so difficult, and at least we can talk to each other every night online, and sorta-kinda-geekily walk around together in WoW, but . . . well, my WoW runs out next week, and I just don't have the money to get a renew. So there goes that. Life soldiers onward, however. And I feel bad, cause I'm sure he'll feel like he needs to talk with me instead of playing, and I know he really enjoys it, so what to do? A quandry, to be sure.
The weather's warming up, which is good. Makes me happy, but it's also like "more time, nothing done". I've been dragging my feet on my writing, in no small part because I'm just so unsure of myself anymore, never sure if anything I write is any good. Even though I know that I am a good writer. Eternal low self-esteem. Justin encourages me a lot, and asks about how all my projects are going, which is sweet, but also makes me feel like a slacker when I haven't done any work. Which is fair, I think. He's looking for a second job so that we can see each other more often, and I can't even sit down and write a page? Of screenplay, no less, which is considerably less text than, say, a novel.
I've just been feeling vaguely out of sorts lately, I guess. *shrug* I s'pose I'm lonely and frustrated. Of course, knowing that doesn't help it any. Meh.
Gee, I'm cheery, lol. Anyway, I'm gonna take a shower and sleep, see how tomorrow (or today, rather) looks.
Well, Justin was here Easter weekend (but didn't stay for Easter - he had things to grade, and he's not Christian anyway), and we had a good time, but, again, sort of bittersweet, you know? The distance makes things so difficult, and at least we can talk to each other every night online, and sorta-kinda-geekily walk around together in WoW, but . . . well, my WoW runs out next week, and I just don't have the money to get a renew. So there goes that. Life soldiers onward, however. And I feel bad, cause I'm sure he'll feel like he needs to talk with me instead of playing, and I know he really enjoys it, so what to do? A quandry, to be sure.
The weather's warming up, which is good. Makes me happy, but it's also like "more time, nothing done". I've been dragging my feet on my writing, in no small part because I'm just so unsure of myself anymore, never sure if anything I write is any good. Even though I know that I am a good writer. Eternal low self-esteem. Justin encourages me a lot, and asks about how all my projects are going, which is sweet, but also makes me feel like a slacker when I haven't done any work. Which is fair, I think. He's looking for a second job so that we can see each other more often, and I can't even sit down and write a page? Of screenplay, no less, which is considerably less text than, say, a novel.
I've just been feeling vaguely out of sorts lately, I guess. *shrug* I s'pose I'm lonely and frustrated. Of course, knowing that doesn't help it any. Meh.
Gee, I'm cheery, lol. Anyway, I'm gonna take a shower and sleep, see how tomorrow (or today, rather) looks.