FUCK!
man...god damnit...I'm so pissed at myself...I got caught with alcohol at school today..and one cigarette and a lighter...they gave me a field sobriety test...I passed...cuz I'm sort of a good kid...but just as I start to make a turn around...I blew everything over...FUCK...FUCK....FUCK!!...I always mess up...but oh well atleast I wasnt stoooooned or something...but anyways so my dad contacted my PO... and I guess theres like 2 things we can do...I can serve my full sentence in juvy or watever or do a 21 day period in a drug and alcohol rehab...but I wasnt even caught under the influence! oh well I guess thats the price I have to pay for the shit I do now...well...this is the last straw with my dad apparently...and he is gunna make sure I go away for awhile....but hopefully he'll blow off steam and change his mind...I hope so...cuz I just started on this road to work hard and wat not for some people and myself and then I fucked it over again...u know suicide has crossed my mind...but its just not worth it...its hard enough living 30 mins or watever away from my friends...I cant imagine not being with them at all...well I'm gunna bail...later..
I <3 the flavor of the month
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