its been awhile

[drink_to_forget]

so i havent had an actual update in quote some time, so hey why not? i think its appropriate....
things have been so topsy turvy lately that everything has changed in at least some way or another....
relationships change, some strengthen while others weaken, while others just seem to fade....
this feeling of displacement continues in my head....
i cant seem to find anywhere i belong....
at work it seems like i have gone from being an insider, friends with everyone, and loving it all....
to being the kid who goes to work just to get the job done and then fading from memory when its over....
i wanna make a fresh start....make myself completely anew....
i found so many things in my room todaay that reminded me of things past that i miss so much, yet again just feel so displaced from....
the memories comfort em somewhat but alienate me at the same time.....
its always when things seem so nearly perfect that they really begin to fall apart....
i start to feel so comfortable with how things are and then all of a sudden i cant find any comfort at all while im in this skin......
i dont know what to so and im not sure if im ok with that or not...

i guess we will see