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[drink_bread]

i just fucking wrote like a novel in here...then deleted so fuck this shit.

lets just say
-i fucking hate this fucking hell hole
-i hate my fucking parents
-i hate the way they make everything my fault
-i hate how i have to keep all my feelings bottled inside me and pretend like its my fault then fucking mutalate myself cause i cant take it anymore
-i hate it how my mom just told me i have heart disease because i smoke too much
-i hate how everything is so fucking fucked up
-i hate how Jesse is fucking all the was in mass. cause i wanna be with him NOW sooo bad because im in love with him
-i hate how i hate myself...

but i do love you [maybe]