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[driftmadly]

I'm getting to the point in my life where I feel like I'm too old for a lot of things. Certain clothing, certain habits, certain people... which is more than a little depressing. I know how old I am, but I don't know how old I look to others, or how I'm supposed to start acting. At times I feel incredibly mature, and at others, indescribably

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[natcowmoo]

Having a baby in the next 5-7 weeks (yes it is that soon) has the beJEZZUS scared out of me. I mean, I'll never tell him that he wasn't a planned event, and now that I know he's coming I'd rather be dead that not have him, but I have wondered NUMEROUS times if I'm mature enough for all this because I am not handling the stress of being pregnant well at all. In fact, I concluded on Wednesday that I'm having a nervous breakdown for the first time in my life. I am graduating med school a year late to prepare for all this, still have 5 years of residency beyond that, so I have no career, and I still sleep in Homer Simpson pajamas and drink kool aid before bed :( I only have a car because the Mustang still works, and I have no mortgage, and likely won't for around 2 more years. So, I don't know where this puts me in the grand scheme of things, but I'm a smorgesboard of timelines if you will. My parents both had jobs, they had cars each, a house, and pretty well had their lives organized before they had kids. I can't even find my toothbrush.
Plus, the ADDED stress of the baby having a 2 vessel cord and a dilated kidney has made me go nuts and think through every possible scenario 400 times, the most likely of which I keep trying to tell myself, is a normal baby.

At any rate, you'll figure it all out Molly. I might not, but you will!!! :)

[dutchessvana]

BUT at the same time, you're way more prepared and capable of raising a child than a VAST majority of girls/women giving birth these days!!!

I think your worrying about the baby SHOWS you're more responsible than most "parents."

BTW I drink kool-aid before bed most nights too!