I can't believe it.
Today wasn't supposed to happen.
It was supposed to be a happy day.
This day wasn't supposed to come for months.
Hector - One of my dogs, was put down today. I just can't get my head around it. He was fine yesterday. And now I'm beginning to think, we should have had the x -rays first, just incase he wasn't bleeding into his abdomen, incase it was something less serious, and we didn't have to have him put down. I miss him so much. The thought that he's in a better place, is comforting, but not as comforting as him being with me right now.
I thought Rupert would go first. I can't believe this. I thought i'd got over the shock, i definately haven't. I really wish, I would wake up tomorrow, and this hadn't happened. I'm just...not understanding it.
I wish I'd known, I probably would have been up all night with him or something. I was going to stay for the injection, but at the last minute I couldn't. I forgot to give him one big hug. For a while now, i've been thinking, I wanted the dogs cremated privately, so we could keep their ashes. I just need it. I just do. I asked my parents before the vet came back in. They've agreed. I just wish lastnight I'd given him more fuss. Told him more how much I loved him. I kept a lock of his hair. It's something else I needed to do.
I've never coped well with death. I knew I wouldn't cope well with this. I just didn't think it would be today. I'll probably post some photos of him soon.
It's nearly 12 hours since he's been gone.
It wasn't supposed to happen today...
It was supposed to be a happy day.
This day wasn't supposed to come for months.
Hector - One of my dogs, was put down today. I just can't get my head around it. He was fine yesterday. And now I'm beginning to think, we should have had the x -rays first, just incase he wasn't bleeding into his abdomen, incase it was something less serious, and we didn't have to have him put down. I miss him so much. The thought that he's in a better place, is comforting, but not as comforting as him being with me right now.
I thought Rupert would go first. I can't believe this. I thought i'd got over the shock, i definately haven't. I really wish, I would wake up tomorrow, and this hadn't happened. I'm just...not understanding it.
I wish I'd known, I probably would have been up all night with him or something. I was going to stay for the injection, but at the last minute I couldn't. I forgot to give him one big hug. For a while now, i've been thinking, I wanted the dogs cremated privately, so we could keep their ashes. I just need it. I just do. I asked my parents before the vet came back in. They've agreed. I just wish lastnight I'd given him more fuss. Told him more how much I loved him. I kept a lock of his hair. It's something else I needed to do.
I've never coped well with death. I knew I wouldn't cope well with this. I just didn't think it would be today. I'll probably post some photos of him soon.
It's nearly 12 hours since he's been gone.
It wasn't supposed to happen today...