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Got love some confusion in your life... Makes things interesting, even when it does kinda get you down a bit...
Facing up to old mistakes is never easy, especially for me. Rarely have I had cause to face a mistake I made before, mostly because I move on with my life and it rarely comes up. Hell, I've cycled so many people through my life, its a wonder that I have had to face something before... But recently , I've been forced to face what is probably the biggest mistake of my life so far... Its not that I could have done much different, from my perspective at the time, but that I made a decision based upon incomplete data and filled in with my prejudices of the time...
Its just that I have learned that things were not how it seemed at the time... And because of that, I made a mistake that I truly wish never happened... But reconciling that within my heart is more difficult that I thought it would be... I have never been one to easily admit that I did something wrong, though I have always been quick to take responsiblity for the pain I've caused...
And I just don't know... I kinda of want things to work out a certain way, but at the same time, I am scared if they do... I'm not happen with some ideas, but I have no control over those decisions... Aint life grand, dammit?
On another thought, I think I've figured out why I like Bleach so much... Its got great music, even if the characters are slightly weird and the storyline totally predictable after a little bit... Gotta find a way to download the music...
And the final bit of news is that I finally got scheduled for the final interview for the job I really want... Gotta pick my dad's brain this weekend about server and AD, but yeah, one F2F interview, then I should hear by the end of next week if I get the job or not!! *croses fingers* It involves a ton of travel (they say 80%, but dad's coworkers say its closer to 90%), but the compensation and benefits are great! And its the experience that I want, something varied and more than programming... Hell, from the sounds of it, there is very little to no programming in this job at all!! *happy Brandon dance*
Facing up to old mistakes is never easy, especially for me. Rarely have I had cause to face a mistake I made before, mostly because I move on with my life and it rarely comes up. Hell, I've cycled so many people through my life, its a wonder that I have had to face something before... But recently , I've been forced to face what is probably the biggest mistake of my life so far... Its not that I could have done much different, from my perspective at the time, but that I made a decision based upon incomplete data and filled in with my prejudices of the time...
Its just that I have learned that things were not how it seemed at the time... And because of that, I made a mistake that I truly wish never happened... But reconciling that within my heart is more difficult that I thought it would be... I have never been one to easily admit that I did something wrong, though I have always been quick to take responsiblity for the pain I've caused...
And I just don't know... I kinda of want things to work out a certain way, but at the same time, I am scared if they do... I'm not happen with some ideas, but I have no control over those decisions... Aint life grand, dammit?
On another thought, I think I've figured out why I like Bleach so much... Its got great music, even if the characters are slightly weird and the storyline totally predictable after a little bit... Gotta find a way to download the music...
And the final bit of news is that I finally got scheduled for the final interview for the job I really want... Gotta pick my dad's brain this weekend about server and AD, but yeah, one F2F interview, then I should hear by the end of next week if I get the job or not!! *croses fingers* It involves a ton of travel (they say 80%, but dad's coworkers say its closer to 90%), but the compensation and benefits are great! And its the experience that I want, something varied and more than programming... Hell, from the sounds of it, there is very little to no programming in this job at all!! *happy Brandon dance*