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.happy 2008.
i'm so glad that December is finally over. December was the worst month for me. A few losses and a ton of bruises, both on my heart and mind. So many people come in our lives and leave just as quickly as they came, leaving nothing but memories, good and bad. Hearts and promises broken, I am done feeling sad for no reason at all, I'm done putting myself into situations where I know I am truly better and deserve nothing but the best, I am ready to move forward with a new conscience and respect for myself. I have realized that the sign of an ending is all around us if we just open our eyes, I have realized that my pictures resembled something I failed to see in the moment and I will never let my feelings for another blind me such as I have done. Even though I have been hurt, I disregard it and try to see the good in people, that is who I am, I give people second chances even when others believe they do not deserve another chance.
I'm done putting myself out there where I know I will only get hurt in the end, I have learned that love is not real, my disbelief in the thing remains so and that will never change. People will always say things they do not mean, then snatch those feelings away from you so quickly that you are left standing with nothing. Those are the people that never really meant anything at all in the first place, if someone can tell you they love you always, then take that away from you, then they never really meant it to begin with.
to the boy who stole my heart, then quickly broke it, you are a good person, with a good heart and even though our time together was short, everything i ever said to you, everything, i meant it, all of it. open your eyes and learn to let people in, i never really truly knew you.