letting go is the same as letting in?
So a lot of changes have been happening to me lately and I've begun to recognize the fact that whenever you let something in your life out there's no reason to feel sad because you make room for new things to enter your life. I have a hard time not feeling upset about letting people I've loved go and leave my life because they've meant so much to me and were such a big part of my life. Then at the same time I acknowledge the fact that some things are just not meant to be and you can't force things to happen in your life. It's given me such a huge relief because now I don't feel bad. I know that there are lots of situations that were not in my control and I shouldn't carry around so much pain and guilt for things that I can't change. I wish I could sometimes but that's not the way life works. Strange really, the more I let things that I thought I couldn't live without go, the better I feel. Free almost. Because I am free. I can make any choices I want to and do anything I want to do and there is absolutely no reason to feel any shame for that. Why should I? Life is about living! It's great to finally be able to feel that way because now instead of trying so hard to force situations and outcomes that I want, I'm opening myself up to new experiences and possibilities. That feeling is almost surreal to me. I don't think I've felt that calm and at ease with myself and my own life in a very long time.