2008
Wow.. so I haven't posted a blog in forever! I think to alot but then I realize that I don't have anything great and clever to say. It's just like me, I talk alot but never say much. I realized the other day, a critical day in the fact that it could have drastically changed alot of things, that when I need to say how I really feel, I can't do it. I mean I just ramble on when I get nervous and all I want to do is say eloquently exactly what I mean to say but I clam up and become really afraid that maybe the person doesn't want to hear what I have to say. Alot of times it's cuz I don't really know what I'm thinking and feeling. I second guess everything. I think that's what I'm most excited for about 2008. I think that this is the year that everything falls into place. I am determined, yes I say it alot, but I want to finally let it all go! Letting go of the pain and the worry and all of the unneeded hurt in my life. I am going to live day by day and focus on my relationships with the people in my life, working hard to become the person I know I am. I used to meditate but I've quit recently, I want to start doing that again and prolly work out now and then to become healthier which will prolly help me feel better. Overall my goal for 2008 is to trust. Trust MYSELF and then everything in my life will fall into place! I am extremely excited about 2008!