Helpless, I need to break out of my emotional shell
Why can't I let my emotions out!!!! I really really really need to cry right now, but I can't. I'm even alone! What the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I choose to close myself off when I shouldn't? Why can't I just let it all out? I feel so self-centered right now. Then I get mad at myself, close myself in, feel self-centered even more because it appears that I only care about myself, get mad at myself because I am self-centered, shut myself off even more, and the cycle repeats. I desperately need a shoulder but don't have one. Goddamn it I hate being so self-centered, *DESPERATELY CRIES IN ANGUISH*, why can't I be normal, or at least somewhere near normalcy? I'm too much like my dad.