Non-foreseeable Future
So just when things got interesting...
Tom's job is taking him to Spokane WA for FOUR MONTHS.
I don't really know what I'm going to be doing with this, but last night I said that the idea of breaking this up and saying "No, I don't want to be with you right now" would make me really sad, and he agreed, so now I suppose we're going to try the stupid fucking long distance thing for a while, with full access to say "Hey, I'm not feeling this", or "I don't think this is working..." without anyone being upset about it. Although Tom made an excellent (yet depressing) point that if it should happen to not work while he's away it would be even worse because there would be no closure, and it wouldn't be face-to-face.
Well, I'm willing to risk it. On a car ride home from Carr's last night I thought to myself, "Fuck it. What have I got to lose here? Nothing, and I don't want to date anyone else. I want Tom." So that was that- and I told Tom. And I think he might have been a little surprized at the firmness of the thought. Pretty definitive which is good because I've been thinking a lot about the situation, and didn't know how I was feeling about it unitl last night.
We had an amazing sushi dinner last night that consisted of cajun tuna, then amaebi, toro, and sake, followed by Atomic Rolls and Thai Rolls. (Oh, plus saki and miso soup of course.) It was the best thing I've experienced in a long time. My actual words, I believe, were "The only way that I could feel better right now is if I had just had a massage after an orgasm while being hand fed chocolate and cigarettes... hmm. I could really eat it everyday, except that it's so damn expensive. The people where fantastically nice as well. Overall, an excellent experience. Did I say it was excellent?
Anyway, Thomas J is leaving, and it makes me sad. I don't know what I'll be doing for the next three-four months. Maybe back to the gym? I do have a reduced membership I could be using. Or hey, maybe even a second job.
I miss you already.
Tom's job is taking him to Spokane WA for FOUR MONTHS.
I don't really know what I'm going to be doing with this, but last night I said that the idea of breaking this up and saying "No, I don't want to be with you right now" would make me really sad, and he agreed, so now I suppose we're going to try the stupid fucking long distance thing for a while, with full access to say "Hey, I'm not feeling this", or "I don't think this is working..." without anyone being upset about it. Although Tom made an excellent (yet depressing) point that if it should happen to not work while he's away it would be even worse because there would be no closure, and it wouldn't be face-to-face.
Well, I'm willing to risk it. On a car ride home from Carr's last night I thought to myself, "Fuck it. What have I got to lose here? Nothing, and I don't want to date anyone else. I want Tom." So that was that- and I told Tom. And I think he might have been a little surprized at the firmness of the thought. Pretty definitive which is good because I've been thinking a lot about the situation, and didn't know how I was feeling about it unitl last night.
We had an amazing sushi dinner last night that consisted of cajun tuna, then amaebi, toro, and sake, followed by Atomic Rolls and Thai Rolls. (Oh, plus saki and miso soup of course.) It was the best thing I've experienced in a long time. My actual words, I believe, were "The only way that I could feel better right now is if I had just had a massage after an orgasm while being hand fed chocolate and cigarettes... hmm. I could really eat it everyday, except that it's so damn expensive. The people where fantastically nice as well. Overall, an excellent experience. Did I say it was excellent?
Anyway, Thomas J is leaving, and it makes me sad. I don't know what I'll be doing for the next three-four months. Maybe back to the gym? I do have a reduced membership I could be using. Or hey, maybe even a second job.
I miss you already.