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Ok, so I really hate myself right now and I have cried more in the last few days than I have in like, forever and I'm not even pms-ing. I am just so angry with myself. I just can't stop thinkning about Wednesday and how much of a bitch I was. I mean seriously, can anyone tell me what the hell is wrong with me? I finally get what I want, but I can't do anything about it. I mean, it isn't my fault I am very uncomfortable around guys, especially him. I just can't stop thinking about how mean I was. And I don't even remember most of it b/c my memory is great at blocking out stuff I don't like to think about. And it doesn't help that my friends aren't exactly being supportive. Aren't they supposed to be understandable? I can't really ask that of them though, because they can't be understandable of something I can't explain.
Blah, getting very upset agin
Blah, getting very upset agin