They call it a crush for a reason >:(
I AM SOOOOO SAD. I AM COMPLETELY CRUSHED. I cried so much earlier today, I felt so led on, and I was. Or maybe I was blind.
Basically, on Monday night I invited myself to his house to watch tv, we didn't do *anything* physical. I had him make me a pb+j sandwich. We also watched the Ring 2, which sucked major ass. I think I was being forward when I asked him to give me a kiss as we were saying goodbye...I told him again that I did like him and asked how he felt about me, he said "I dunno yet." I guess he figured out soon after that he didn't like me, that our feelings weren't mutual. He did try to like me, you know, by going out with me several time, but it just didn't work out. He didn't feel any chemistry besides friendship.
As he was telling me this over AIM (I did ask, it had been on my mind since I first started liking him), I felt tense all over, and an immediate sense of failure and loss. I felt so crushed, just like the name implies. He said he wanted to tell me sooner how he felt but he was so busy with work he didn't have time to call (or email I guess either). He doesn't have a mobile either, lame!
I feel like such a fool for being so infatuated with him, I felt so in love, I felt so many butterflies when I was just near him. He made me feel so alive and happy, something I haven't felt in a really really long time. I thought I was going to be happy with him, I thought something great was to be, but no. He was really sorry for not telling me sooner, before I got *too* attached. heh. A bit late for that.
I thought we had a real connection, but it definitely wasn't mutual.
I am a fool. And my heart aches. :(
Basically, on Monday night I invited myself to his house to watch tv, we didn't do *anything* physical. I had him make me a pb+j sandwich. We also watched the Ring 2, which sucked major ass. I think I was being forward when I asked him to give me a kiss as we were saying goodbye...I told him again that I did like him and asked how he felt about me, he said "I dunno yet." I guess he figured out soon after that he didn't like me, that our feelings weren't mutual. He did try to like me, you know, by going out with me several time, but it just didn't work out. He didn't feel any chemistry besides friendship.
As he was telling me this over AIM (I did ask, it had been on my mind since I first started liking him), I felt tense all over, and an immediate sense of failure and loss. I felt so crushed, just like the name implies. He said he wanted to tell me sooner how he felt but he was so busy with work he didn't have time to call (or email I guess either). He doesn't have a mobile either, lame!
I feel like such a fool for being so infatuated with him, I felt so in love, I felt so many butterflies when I was just near him. He made me feel so alive and happy, something I haven't felt in a really really long time. I thought I was going to be happy with him, I thought something great was to be, but no. He was really sorry for not telling me sooner, before I got *too* attached. heh. A bit late for that.
I thought we had a real connection, but it definitely wasn't mutual.
I am a fool. And my heart aches. :(