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The only day I have off of school is Sunday, and on Sunday I work. I have no days off, I am always doing something. And how do I feel about that??
I love it! It makes me feel like am being productive, like I am getting somewhere, making a big dent in my future. I am getting my AA in the Spring and that makes me happy. I still want to go to CSM but my dad doesn't feel so comfortable with it as he did (bombings and whatnot).
I have been trying to spend my time crafting lately, I have recently made some talons out of polymer clay to put on my fur boots. I took off those stupid pompoms, now they look grim and frostbitten, viking. I'm working on some new knitted gauntlets to wear after the other ones came out too big. New yarn, new gauge *crosses fingers*
Today I spent some time on myself, something rare these days. I finally dyed my hair after two months, also gave it a trim to it's former glory. People sure seem to like my hair, it *is* cute though ^__^
I think the Celexa is really working. I feel much better, I know the friends I do have (2) do notice. I am going to try and keep up emails and messages, I am the worst at responding to anything, and that is the agoraphobia doing it's deed ¬_¬ I have lost so many contacts because of it, how sad for me. Oh how I weep.
I am struggling with the boyf, it is an unhealthy relationship for me, my therapist and I have decided it was a big factor to my attempt in July. It is so hard to break 5+ year ties. I know I can do it, it is only a matter of time now. I have really tried hard too, 3 times in the past month to be exact. I am disconnecting myself.
My new friend Cristina is a charm. I think we are twins, we are telling people we're identical twins even though we aren't really :) We met in our basic drawing class, she's a photog. We're going to Haunt on the 26th. I miss that place, I didn't think I would as much as I do, especially now that its Halloween season. I feel so left out from the usual. bah!
I also have a crush on someone special. :)
And just because:
I love it! It makes me feel like am being productive, like I am getting somewhere, making a big dent in my future. I am getting my AA in the Spring and that makes me happy. I still want to go to CSM but my dad doesn't feel so comfortable with it as he did (bombings and whatnot).
I have been trying to spend my time crafting lately, I have recently made some talons out of polymer clay to put on my fur boots. I took off those stupid pompoms, now they look grim and frostbitten, viking. I'm working on some new knitted gauntlets to wear after the other ones came out too big. New yarn, new gauge *crosses fingers*
Today I spent some time on myself, something rare these days. I finally dyed my hair after two months, also gave it a trim to it's former glory. People sure seem to like my hair, it *is* cute though ^__^
I think the Celexa is really working. I feel much better, I know the friends I do have (2) do notice. I am going to try and keep up emails and messages, I am the worst at responding to anything, and that is the agoraphobia doing it's deed ¬_¬ I have lost so many contacts because of it, how sad for me. Oh how I weep.
I am struggling with the boyf, it is an unhealthy relationship for me, my therapist and I have decided it was a big factor to my attempt in July. It is so hard to break 5+ year ties. I know I can do it, it is only a matter of time now. I have really tried hard too, 3 times in the past month to be exact. I am disconnecting myself.
My new friend Cristina is a charm. I think we are twins, we are telling people we're identical twins even though we aren't really :) We met in our basic drawing class, she's a photog. We're going to Haunt on the 26th. I miss that place, I didn't think I would as much as I do, especially now that its Halloween season. I feel so left out from the usual. bah!
I also have a crush on someone special. :)
And just because: