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There is no such thing as love. It's a front. I'm glad I don't allow myself to get attached anymore. I've decided that the pain afterward overrides the actual happiness you feel when you're in love.
So, enough with me being bitter and apathetic. I haven't written in awhile so I'll just give short details. Okay,....on with the details!
The Blood Brothers show on the 2nd was pretty good but they have played better. Please Mr. Gravedigger didn't play as good as they normally do so I was disappointed. David was being a nerd in the back of the venue and started doing handstands towards the beginning of the Blood Brother's set. My glasses were crushed but I managed to fix them without my parental units noticeing. I felt like my chest was going to explode during the middle of the show and I had to keep getting out of the pit because I felt like I was going to die.
My life revolves around music. Gotta love it. Chris picked me up and brought me to Lou's Records for the first time. I had heard of it before but i've always ended going to Off The Record since it's the closest store with good vinyl. Anyway, it was great. Everything was cheap and it had a pretty decent amount of good vinyl. Chris was a sweetheart and bought me a Kill Me Tomorrow cd and the Swing Kids/ Spanakorzo split on black vinyl. I think the reason I like Chris is because of his love for music. That and the fact that i'm such a crappy writer that i appreciate his style. I miss that.
For awhile I was unsure about the whole guy thing. I now know that I can't be with them. The entire time I was "with" this guy I was depressed. My nightmares worsened but I tried to convince myself that he had nothing to do with them. He is a very nice guy and he never did anything to hurt me but still....he is a guy. I'm attracted to people regardless of sex but men scare me and I can't stand being around women all of the time. I think I'll try to stick with women when I decide to start being with people but right now I don't feel like being around people at all. We stopped hanging out all of the time and my nightmares lessened and I finally got my appitiete back. After not talking for a couple days we talked online and he released the tension by breaking off what we never had. I had been waiting for him to do it.
So, enough with me being bitter and apathetic. I haven't written in awhile so I'll just give short details. Okay,....on with the details!
The Blood Brothers show on the 2nd was pretty good but they have played better. Please Mr. Gravedigger didn't play as good as they normally do so I was disappointed. David was being a nerd in the back of the venue and started doing handstands towards the beginning of the Blood Brother's set. My glasses were crushed but I managed to fix them without my parental units noticeing. I felt like my chest was going to explode during the middle of the show and I had to keep getting out of the pit because I felt like I was going to die.
My life revolves around music. Gotta love it. Chris picked me up and brought me to Lou's Records for the first time. I had heard of it before but i've always ended going to Off The Record since it's the closest store with good vinyl. Anyway, it was great. Everything was cheap and it had a pretty decent amount of good vinyl. Chris was a sweetheart and bought me a Kill Me Tomorrow cd and the Swing Kids/ Spanakorzo split on black vinyl. I think the reason I like Chris is because of his love for music. That and the fact that i'm such a crappy writer that i appreciate his style. I miss that.
For awhile I was unsure about the whole guy thing. I now know that I can't be with them. The entire time I was "with" this guy I was depressed. My nightmares worsened but I tried to convince myself that he had nothing to do with them. He is a very nice guy and he never did anything to hurt me but still....he is a guy. I'm attracted to people regardless of sex but men scare me and I can't stand being around women all of the time. I think I'll try to stick with women when I decide to start being with people but right now I don't feel like being around people at all. We stopped hanging out all of the time and my nightmares lessened and I finally got my appitiete back. After not talking for a couple days we talked online and he released the tension by breaking off what we never had. I had been waiting for him to do it.