Alone
For those of you who dont know I like to separate my buddy list into several categories as I am sure that most of you do.However, what I find somewhat disheartening is that over the course of the last couple days when Ive signed on to AIM the top category of my closest friends has reflected that none of them are signed on. Not that this necessarily means anything because it doesnt. It just seems to highlight my relative loneliness. Its not really the sort of thing that you go around talking to people about and to be honest I dont really want people to know that I feel this way. I havent really met anybody new and my life feels stagnant at least for the time being. Ive been hanging out with Leo and Scott alot and thats the lone upside to this phase in my life. Theres a huge void where she used to be and nobody can be expected to fill it. For Halloween we're gonna be Bill and Ted and it should be cool if I can manage to stay in character and not become overly obnoxious. Even if I do its only for a couple days and it cant put me into any worse of a mood. Either that or theres a serious hormonal imbalance in my system, because my eating habits have been off the wall for the last week or so...Wanna talk about not being able to stop? But that could be from working out all the time too. I got accepted to do the Workout Partner at the Leech...see how that works out. Im dyin to meet people and my confidence is just shit. Rudys family is here and they are freaking awesome, I wish I could be more chipper for them.
So long
So long