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Damn Diana, Lindsey, and now Danielle. This is going to be a long haul.
1) I have this irrational confidence that whatever anyone can do, I can do it better. I make up the excuse "If I really wanted to, I could, but I don't." What I really mean is "I don't think I can ever achieve above mediocre, so I don't want to try that way I can at least uphold a somewhat decent standing."
2) I'm a hypocrit.
3) I'm such a great actress, I've fooled myself into thinking so.
4) Every girl I see, I size myself up to her. And, like number one, I always find some flaw in that girl to latch onto. The flaw where I'm "better."
5) I'm so much more easily pressured and influenced by people than I lead onto. I try to keep myself from doing "bad" things by finding some excuse or reason why I CAN'T. Although most of the allergies are true, I tend to exaggerate them.
6) Feeling desired is something that leads me around like a bitch. If I don't have someone to make me feel desired, I feel like a good for nothing failure.
7) I say sarcastic, cynical remarks to cover up my insecurities. I used to be the annoying, nerdy, unwanted semi-Asian girl. And, when I say used to be, I mean I still feel I am. I feel like the pebble in everyone's shoe.
8) I am so worried about other people's fuck ups, I don't pay enough attention to mine.
9) Nothing is ever my fault. Granted, I do try my hardest to make the "best" decisions, I have the hardest time admitting when I am wrong.
10) I feel like I am meant to become something better in life than the monotonous suburban culture. Famous, maybe.
11) I'm so eager to run away from my fears of not being accepted that I almost moved away twice. I'm desperate for change, I just can't settle for something when I know there might be something better.
12) I always have something to say because I feel like I'm helpless or ignorant if I'm speechless.
1) I have this irrational confidence that whatever anyone can do, I can do it better. I make up the excuse "If I really wanted to, I could, but I don't." What I really mean is "I don't think I can ever achieve above mediocre, so I don't want to try that way I can at least uphold a somewhat decent standing."
2) I'm a hypocrit.
3) I'm such a great actress, I've fooled myself into thinking so.
4) Every girl I see, I size myself up to her. And, like number one, I always find some flaw in that girl to latch onto. The flaw where I'm "better."
5) I'm so much more easily pressured and influenced by people than I lead onto. I try to keep myself from doing "bad" things by finding some excuse or reason why I CAN'T. Although most of the allergies are true, I tend to exaggerate them.
6) Feeling desired is something that leads me around like a bitch. If I don't have someone to make me feel desired, I feel like a good for nothing failure.
7) I say sarcastic, cynical remarks to cover up my insecurities. I used to be the annoying, nerdy, unwanted semi-Asian girl. And, when I say used to be, I mean I still feel I am. I feel like the pebble in everyone's shoe.
8) I am so worried about other people's fuck ups, I don't pay enough attention to mine.
9) Nothing is ever my fault. Granted, I do try my hardest to make the "best" decisions, I have the hardest time admitting when I am wrong.
10) I feel like I am meant to become something better in life than the monotonous suburban culture. Famous, maybe.
11) I'm so eager to run away from my fears of not being accepted that I almost moved away twice. I'm desperate for change, I just can't settle for something when I know there might be something better.
12) I always have something to say because I feel like I'm helpless or ignorant if I'm speechless.